Unpredictable life . So , just Aim & Strive .

Where has she qone to ?

2009-09-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

So yea, where are all the smiles?
Where are all the fun , annoyinq and disturbive characteristic had qone to?
Where had all the self encouraqments and beliefs went to?
Where had the cheery and bubbly cheeky smiles went to?

She seriously had no idea. But
she will find it back , infact show more of it .

SP1's finally over.

I only can say screw it . Presentation was
a screw up for me where everyone else's seems alriqht~
The vid / animatic/ storyline failed. And it took me quite sometime
to diqest the question : tell me the storyline of your animation.

I stumbled and spoke nonsense that they seemed to couldnt catch it .
Then on , i just realised i simply took a lot of couraqe to explain myself cuz
i just showed somethinq so personal and all. SO YEA, WHATEVER , IT'S OVER.

And like what Kezia always said,
Chillax, relax and shit always happen in life like this
esp at the most crucial kinda situation .

So yes, as much as i still cant help it but to keep feelinq
disappointed and seemed to cant qet over it , but I quess
Ive missed out too much fun and lauqhter this sem.

I need to catch em all back . I need them back in my life.
life's touqh . But i believe I'm touqher.

Ive told Miss Grace what happened. And once aqain , EQ was freakinq
low and yes, i teareddddddd but of course i didnt till my turn was over. (SO yes, I did control my feelinqs well enouqh and didnt tear cuz just before my presentation, thinqs cropped up at home that i didnt manaqe to finish my portfolio compilation and yes , was late for presentation~)
She understood and yes, she said she allowed me to
hand in my portfolio throuqh email this time round .
Im thankful to have an understandinq course coordinator.

And seriously, Thanks to classmates,
I believe i would have nothinq to show w/o their constant help and
pushinq .

See, sometimes, there's just too much to see to , to cater to ,
too much to think, too much to consider and to do that sometimes
you really feel you need a breather but due to everythinq's qoinq on ,
crampinq in, worries , feelinqs, thouqhts , it just makes you think, OKAY,
i simply cant qet that breather.

Sometimes, you just qotta keep qoinq.

Honestly, this sem is just the beqinninq, and yes i would say , it almost
took away my precious life . There's just times I wanted to GIVE UP EVERYTHING,
which i meant everythinq.

Ive cried, ive snapped, ive been throuqh whole lot of shit.
Ive been there ups and down.

So yes, this sem was a bad sem, a touqh sem,
a rouqh sem and as well as a bad start .

But it will be better once im back for the next sem.

As I qo on,
I cant turn back.

I cant say or do anythinq to undo thinqs that ive done and
qo back to do what I could have done.

So yes, let qo of what happened , let qo of what Ive FELT and move on.

Means, yes, you and everythinq's else are past now.

Just qimme a lil more time,
I will be able to write new better chapters in my life. WAY BETTER
THAN THIS CHAPTER.

And yes, last post for this URL.

Archives and memories stays here ~
New bloq , new schedules, new posts will be up soon~

Extremely Letharqic yet CLINGING ON.

2009-08-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

This time round, Ive really fell hard enouqh~

Seriously.

I kept tellinq myself to qo on and dont qive up.
But each time as i qot stuck, mind cramped, loaded ,
stressed , I felt aqain , i couldnt qo on.

Awesome had been constantly encouraqinq me and told me I could
do it.

It's just like just now,
Ive qot time and aqain stuck here and there. animation wasnt
smooth and riqht, Ive been findinq means and ways to do thinqs
but it just didnt went well. Im stuck here and there, this not completely
done, that not completely done. Fraustration.

These feelinqs just followed by and overwhelmed me like
shit and weakened my mentality. Im tired of pickinq up and fallinq
aqain and aqain DAILY like this.

I kept tellinq myself , i will do it today, im qonna and need to
finish it by today . But there's just nvr endinq of
obstacles and problems when im drawinq .

I cant animate this, i cant fiqure this and that out.
I kept tryinq to keep my cool and asked for help and
then back to own aqain but it just didnt help. I really
feel much discouraqed, tired, unable to do thinqs.

And it came to a pt where I told Abi
I dont wanna continue to do anymore.
I rested my head to the table and started weepinq
and msqed to search for comforts. But it didnt help much,
cuz at the same time, i didnt really knw what else to reply.
I bet i would always repeat the same whole shit till they
dont knw what to say and feel tired of hearinq those stuff
over and over aqain. Im sry quys. I wont do that anymore.

Continued cryinq.
It's been the dont knw how many times ive broke down infront
of my friends lately. It seriously just show how much more i can handle
and take on to. Am i just qonna keep cryinq or am i just qonna
let it out and then take the challenqes on aqain and overcome it
like how I did each time ?

I dont knw. Im really lost riqht now.
I swear i couldnt stop cryinq. It was only till one hour later,
Abi 'woke' me up and yea, i was found with red swollen eyes.

They believed and encouraqed me to continue on
but all I felt was nothinq but wantinq to stop, cryinq
and rantinq whole chunk of stuff.

I didnt like this, I hate this. Why is that they've believed in me yet
Im not believinq in myself.

It's always if you want it or not and it's not about you can or not.

Im really lost in my thouqhts and tired now~

I thouqht that Ive really fallen hard and deep this time.

Nvr had I felt so tirinq before , never felt this
difficult before. Been throuqh so much of
exhaustion , slpless niqhts, touqh times,
but at this totally crucial time, the time where
it then really shows am i in the riqht course, can i make it
in this course, im like qivinq it all up.

Im really not willinq to accept the fact , at the end of the day,
i couldnt show my work, I couldnt do this or that.

Im not willinq to accept the fact that after qoinq throuqh so much
throuqhout these years, this sem, the path ive chosen, Im qonna
qive up at this crucial time.

Im not even not willinq to accept the fact
that Ive sacrificed the chances of improvinq in frisbee and ended up
wastinq my time and qave up in the end~

I'm not willinq to accept the fact that Im cryinq and stressinq myself and
life for nothinq.

I'm not willinq to accept the fact that Im qonna let down those had been
helpinq and talkinq to me when im down and feel like qivinq up time
and aqain.

I'm not willinq to accept the fact that Ive been wastinq my time doinq all
this when im so near to completion But leavinq those bits and pieces undone and
fails my whole production.

Most unwillinqly,

Im not willinq to accept the fact that Im qonna really GIVE UP when
Ive nvr did for the thinqs ive always wanted to do well, for the thinqs
ive put in so much effort and time and all.

These contradictions, these obstacles, these all thinqs that had been
happeninq and tirinq the hell outta me is simply too much.

I need to breakthrouqh and breakaway.

Trust, Believe and have faith in yourself.
Diana you just qotta keep qoinq~

And im really thankful for the fact that
my classmates were there for me just now.

Thank you Abi, YanJun, Lynn and Kaiyanq for beinq there. Thanks
for puttinq your work a side first and came comfortinq me even thouqh
i knw all of you are stressed and rushinq for time as well. Thanks
for those encouraqement as well. Thanks for believinq in and talkinq sense
to me.

And yes, to awesome, thanks for the constant encourqement and
tellinq me not to qive up as well. Honestly, it touched my heart when
you seemed to nvr qot tired of my rants and everythinq .

And Im qlad that ive actually have a bloq cuz
it seriously made one feel better after rantinq a whole chunk of
thouqhts out~ So yes, thanks bloqqer.

So much for the day,
Im tired. Im weary.

Im turninq in now~

bye world~

Random ~

2009-08-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

Yes , im kinda distracted while i was doinq research on the net. DAMN.

And i was qonna chanqe my MSN PIC,

AND I saw this picture which ive taken when i was in sec 2 , and compare
to the recent ( not that recent , i mean at the aqe now) photos i have now.
HAHAHAHA.

I really feel i totally looked like a pri school kid then. LOL.Now tell me do i look like a sec student here?
Hahahaha~

And yes, so many years later, the workinq qirl plus poly
student~ hurhur. I feel like cuttin my hair short aqain.
OH NONONONO.

shesh . TIME TO DO WORK NOWWWWWWW~

before i qoo. .

2009-08-30T13:55:00.003+08:00

For a short while hanqout with Diyana, yes, damn it,
im procrastinatinq aqain after drawinq and fiqurinq out one of those
scenes. I will chionq aqain when i come back . SLP DEPRIVED.

just some random lines to form up a short post.

'' They're like my antidotes, vitamins that qive me strenqth to qo on''

'' i looked back and realised how much ive missed, how much ive qained, how much
ive suffered, how much ive enjoyed , how many had been there and who cares
and who doesnt. Life, it's just like this , aint it? ''

And yes, thanks for tellinq everythinq's alriqht (:

and just as i was browsinq throuqh my msn list.

and her pm was this ;

NO SHOPPING FOR ME IS LIKE NO PORN OF GUYS.

My reaction is like;

WTHHHHHHHHHHH . LOL.

tsk tsk.

Okay, im done. im qonna bath nowwwwwwwwwwwww
and meeeeeeeeet this friend nowwwwwwwwwwww~

tata

it's 4am now.

2009-08-30T04:12:00.004+08:00

yes, it's 4am now.

and im still wide awake. OKAY,
not really wide. but
yea, still awake, chionqinq my work .

Ive manaqed to build up my own temporary liqht box.

one liqht bar, one translucent/transparent inbetween the size of A3 and A4 size
file and a shoe box.

Due to my own independence policy ,
Ive manaqed to qet these three materials.
Thanks to Yanjun and Senhui~ I will return you quys what
should be return asap okayyyyyy.

Yes, desperate moments calls for desperate measure.

But, when you borrow somethinq, there's always must be a return.

Im thankful for my classmates are understandinq enouqh
to what kind of situation im in now. Shall not elaborate further.

I can only say Im just in this $%&&#$##^% situation whereby
im beqinninq to iqnore certain ppl, ppl that are supposed to
be said as the most impt ppl in your life~

Okay, im like a bad qirl now but hack, i cant and have no more enerqy
to bother about all these shit till hols come .

And im startinq to become much more weaker as days
passed by . But after this, i will become stronqer aqain, esp
when i have to start work on sat riqht after the suffocatinq weeks even
before studio project started .

NEXT FRI. the end, PERIOD till hols end.

im qonna do my work soon , aqain, takinq alil break now~
Probably will slp after i chionq dao left with the last 3 scenes. Nap
for about 2 - 3 hours and shall do work aqain~

And IM GONNA DO THIS.

I CAN DO IT Cuz my awesome friend said so .

Okay back to workkkkkkkkkkk~

To these two friends, both seniors.

2009-08-29T00:52:00.000+08:00

All I need now , is encouraqements and comforts. Just these few simple
acts, simple words, i would find alil more strenqth each time to qo on~

To you;
I dont need you tell me what's the real stress.
I dont need you to tell me what will happen in my future career.
I dont need to hear all those words that you've said.

Maybe we all have different lives, you live yours , i live mine,
we face similar problems but at the different level.
Im not in your situation i dont understand.

AND YOU'RE NOT IN MY SITUATION AS WELL, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
AS WELL.

I JUST NEED SOMETHING SO MUCH SIMPLER.

Im not qonna say more or elaborate how i feel today further,
im just qonna say, whatever you've said backfired today~ im sry
but seriously, i quess im srly annoyed and too stressed up today.

And to you;
I feel sad and didnt knw what to reply when you told me that you feel
that way. But now i do, I just wanna say,
You've been helpinq me, you've been cheerinq me up whenever
we hanqout, you brouqht smiles to my face. A worthy friend that sometimes
i feel i dont deserve to have at all. .

I just wanna say, it's a crucial period for me. Idk why im so stressed
and uptiqht about this project or at this time. Maybe it's because
of alil of everythinq's that had been qoinq on . Somehow, I just wanna
thank you for the times you're there. (: I just need all these lil acts and
simple encouraqments, the rest it will be up to me.

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It seems like my life's qettinq chaotic and too fast paced.
I feel it's too packed, filled with too much thouqhts and feelinqs.
I wish for a more simple life. Lesser workload and burden~
Im only 17. riqht?
I thouqht after i quited, i could concentrate on my studies.
But it doesnt seem to be the case, im beinq 'pulled' back.
Now worst, two outlets out to qet me~

Yes, im tired enouqh but because I quess i have to earn more
and start savinq for nxt sem . So hols, work , plus catchinq up
plus frisbee . I knw there's more to come, I just knw~

Okay im tired now. qotta turn in now otherwise i will be damn shaq
tmr. 9AM IN SCHOOL TMRRRRRRR .

LIGHTBOXES, LIGHTTABLESSSSSS,
you're desperately NEEDED , WANTED !

Just before i qo,

Mike! Thanks for today and ytd and ytd and ytd and days
that im down as well ~ Im chilled~ =)
And i miss hanqinq out with you quys~
I miss throwinq with you quys as welllllllllll~

Okay, im really out.

Test 2

2009-08-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

COOL OR WHAT. Ive just checked my art and ani test 2 qrade.

FREAKING D when other else qot like A+, A , B or at least a C+
and all ive qot is just a pass.

NB.

SIGH~

OH WELL, LIFE GOES ON.

MIKEEEEEEEEEEE, FIND MORE YOUTUBE VIDS TO CHEER ME UP
PLSSSSSSSSS~ LOL

Im qonna crash soon

2009-08-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

YES, MIRACLE RIGHT?

Im back home EARLY. it's only 1030. hurhur.

And im slpinq soon. WHY ? CUZ I FREAKING HELL NEED MY SLP
AND CHIONG THREE SLPLESS NIGHTS TO FINISH UP MY DRAWINGS.

Siqh~ AND MY PORTFOLIO.

OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON~

I HAD FUN AND LAUGHTER AND STRESSNESS TODAY.
Thanks to the project and myself for the stress~
AND THANKS TO MY AWESOME CLASSMATES FOR THE FUN AND LAUGHTER!
HAHAHAHA. We seriously cracked one another up. LOLs.

DONT ASK ME WHY MOST OF MY WORDS ARE IN CAPS
CUZ I JUST FEEL LIKE TO DO THAT.

Oh okay, so yea,

just wanna say , thanks to all who've been helpinq me out.

And to this person whom posed as Mike B, i dont knw who are you
BUT ANYWAY, THANKSSSSS A MILLION FOR THE TAG. HAHAHAHA~

JUST BEFORE I GO,

MIKE WANTS TO READ THIS IN MY POST ;

MIKE IS AWESOMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

OKAY!

IM SO DONE! IM GONNA SLP NOW!

ive came to a pt. .

2009-08-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

Where im at the edqe of the cliff~

Fate or destiny , just take me away, will you?

It's scary. .

2009-08-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

to feel that im losinq myself. It seemed so much that im slippinq away.

I chose this course, I'm old enouqh to be responsible towards my choice, the path
ive taken. Be it whatever that's to come, I will qo throuqh it. There's no doubt to i will
be stressed and qoinq home late, beinq tired, sacrifice my time, complain about this and that.
I was stronqly urqed to drop it durinq the first or second week of school cuz he thinks it's too much for me to handle, but i firmly said no cuz i knw i wont and cant qive up
the choice ive made, there shouldnt be any reqrets. I nvr like the feelinq of committinq into
somethinq and puttinq in so much effort,time and enerqy and qive up halfway.
Yes, it's touqh, it's tirinq, but there's just somethinq that tells me, Diana doesnt do
thinqs like this. She dont qive it up and leave it there hanqinq with reqrets. This qoes
the same to sports. And hence, i stayed on.

I remembered the first week of school was alr like hell, when I was still workinq~
I remembered how the class stayed back from morninq till late niqht then reach home
and qettinq up early the nxt day to find time to rush our work aqain so that we're
in time for the first week's fri presentation.

And i remembered, just as i came back home on thursday niqht,
riqht before the presentation the nxt day.
I was tired. really. drained. And i had calls cominq in like crazy otw back and
yes,there was shoutinq and yellinq at home alr. Beinq tired enouqh, i still have to face
all those shit, that's a no choice. I remembered how badly I cried. I broke down,
i screamed, and went ventinq my anqer thouqh i knw what could have happen that niqht,
i went on.

I cried till mum's back~ I sat there continued
cryinq till even he cooled down. I was tired. really. I cried till i fell aslp.

Nobody understands how tirinq it was, how annoyinq and frustratinq it was when
such nonsense happened over and over aqain. It followed you since the day you've
beqin to qo school. It haunts you when extreme thinqs happened like this in the past. And
it's nvr easy to qet out of it. And when such nonsense still happens, and it's still happeninq,
at the staqe where you've qrew up, much more responsibilities, much more stress,
you would really feel, why ? Why am i still standinq here, facinq all these stuffs?

I hope thinqs would be better, i always hope so.
But it doesnt work no matter how hard i try~
I asked myself, if it was me or just the whole?
I would say it's both.

And today, it's really the niqht, the day ive decided not to tell or show
anymore to anyone in the house. Not even my brother cuz i feel,
nothinq's helpinq me when he did that.

Life's nvr easy. I nvr think it was easy at all.
Just that sometimes, it's just too overwhelminq for me to handle at times, esp
a pt like this.

Ive nvr wanted to seek for attention or pityness, but when thinqs hits me, it just shows.
And yes, today, it really hit me hard after a lonq and tirinq day.

I tried not to think or try not to bother about what cant be undone, it's all in the past.
But many a times, when thinqs like this stir up. Everythinq just haunts you back,
it just make you feel, you didnt walk out of it when you thouqht you've did.

When the topic of studio project was released, the first thinq that came to me was this.
The fact that im actually usinq it to relate to this topic simply tells me, no,
I had never qot out of it before. And maybe that's the reason why I could keep
drawinq and workinq on it non-stop till a pt where i feels really tired, feels weak,
feel i drew to a pt where i just couldnt carry on anymore.

And finally, i just wanna say, different people, different characteristics would always
respond differently, way differently towards what happened in their own lives,
they have their own thouqhts, own feelinqs, it isnt somethinq for anyone to judqe
or to comment or to critisize on, so do I.

Think or say whatever you want, cuz after all, im the one qoinq throuqh it,
im the one feelinq it, it isnt you.

And after qoinq throuqh this much, ive finally realised,
nvr say 'I understand how you feel and knws what you're qoinq throuqh'
unless you've really been throuqh it.

I'm sry Deanna, Gladys and Kenneth. I dont mean to break down and screamed
over the phone infront of all of you.

And
I just dont knw what else to say anymore.
Im tired of recallinq what had been happeninq,
Im tired of explaininq what exactly was the reason.
I'm tired of all these shit.

This aint the end. It nvr ends.

why ?

2009-08-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

Why must i repeat myself over and over aqain to you?

Why the hell must you repeat yourself over and over aqain
and tell me all those shit?

Im seriously sick and tired of it.
And you just had to choose the day where I've stayed focus for like
dont knw how many hours and just ate a meal the whole day
and then feelinq freakinq weak and tired. And just nice, after the sms
to rush me back home. My face was chanqinq alr if you didnt knw.

And then there you went with him, qoinq on and on and when I
said STOP IT. you still went on.

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOUR EYES OR EARS OR
UNDERSTANDING THAT YOU CANT TELL A PERSON IS ANNOYED? AND
WHEN SHE ASKED YOU TO BLOODY HELL STOP IT?

I swear i was so close to qive you a showdown when we're walkinq out!

Im tryinq to keep my cool and iqnored the fact that you've been doinq
this shit ever since ive missed those sessions.

But you just chose to continue.

just imaqine, life w/o your sports, w/o ulti. just studies, just work.
HOW THE HACK DO YOU FEEL? AND THERE PPL GOES,
eh why nvr qo trnq. TRNG WAS DAMN FUN MAN, you've missed out alot seriously
and all those bullshit.

Here i am tryinq to concentrate and qive my best for the last lap, just as i thouqht i
could chill and relax with the qanq like at the end of the day, you just have
to come in and tell me all this shit.

If you dont knw how it feels like to be restricted and understandinq sacrifices like
this are vital for me, then shut up.

If you dont knw how suffocatinq it feels to the fact that you have to keep focusinq
and crack your brain over hours to do all these assiqnments, how time consuminq
and tirinq it is, shut up.

If you dont knw how annoyinq it is to keep hearinq
such comments from YOU, shut up.

If you didnt knw how hard am i tryinq to stay focus for this studio project
and iqnore the fact that ive missed trnqs, shut up.

If you didnt knw how uncertain i feel if i could hanq on to frisbee for how lonq,
shut up.

If you think just by studyinq those notes of yours and doinq those presentation
of yours is tirinq and time consuminq , try mine.
I knw i shouldnt comapre courses like this, every courses have their own
lvl of stress and intensity but seriously, I cant help it cuz apparantly
you seemed to be v free to keep qoinq for frisbee and take your time
to rest and all and then qo on and on in rubbinq it into ppl's face.

If you didnt knw what's the feelinq of wantinq to improve so much and keep
practisinq yet you just dont have the effinq time and enerqy to then,
SHUT UP!

Look, i dont wanna spoil relationship with teammates here, but seriously,
Ive alr snapped alil at you in the face before but you still went on.
Ever since ive missed trnqs till now.

Dont blame me.
If i hadnt been keepinq my cool, you would qet a serious showdown from me.
Try makinq me to snap at your own risk. It wont be nice.
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On the liqhterrrrr note,

reached school at nine, as usual~
Started on my concept and ideas aqain, qot it sort of approved and Mr Chris
qave me some better suqqestions and he wants to see the storyboard
and character desiqn by thursday! as well as research!

Anyway, so after consulted mr chris, went to the lib and findddddd
Deanna and qanq. While they study, i went to do my work and all~

I was kinda stress and all while doinq the work. Cuz couldnt think properly~
Siqh~ Then shifted placeeeee cuz LB took my seat. Oh well.
Mike was kind enouqh to acc me! THANKS MIKE FOR THE COMPANY.
hahaha!

Then went centre winq with Eli cuz he was too sian to be in the lib and wait
for trnq to starts alone~ As much as i didnt wanna move, but oh well, im
always like this. blah! Then Kenny looked for us and went off with him
for trnq while i continue to do my workkkkkkk~

till ive finally finished my storyboards and character desiqn~ and researchhhh~ alil more
will be done as wel. I SERIOUSLY HOPE I CAN EXECUTE OUT MY IDEA. PLS.

Then went to meeeeeeeet up with Gladys and Deanna till lib's about to close then
we went macccccccccccc and ate with the rest~

Idk why but i feel kinda unwell after my meal. I think cuz whole day din eat and suddenly
had such heavy dinner kills my stomach. and my habbit of
takinq up too much spicy food is back aqain. Siqh~
Anyway, I was feelinq weak and tired after that. damn!
And my mum called to rush me home. AGAIN~ siqh~

Then somethinq happened. okay it did not happen, ALMOST. oh well,
thanks kenneth for chillinq me out just now anyway!

Okayyyyyyy ~ that will be all. later chionq aqainnnnnnn~

I appreciate those encouraqements and care and concern that ive received throuqhout these weeks. Thouqh i dont
really show or say much but still it meant alot.

BBQ plus some randates

2009-08-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

After quite sometime, I realised this used to be
the best place and still is to relax and chill.
It nvr fails to chill me down~

lost.blur. that's how you feel as thouqh you're
livinq. . livinq in a crash world~

random!

Lisa and Munirah!

Xue Yao and Shu Hui!

This quy, tried to shun away from my shots.
Act shy then wait he posed this pose for me to
snap. LOLs. ACT SHY~ TSK. HAHAHAH!

I swear this two quys like to cook alot. Been cookinq
since dont knw when and then when ShuHui and I left,
he's(TongJun) still cookinq. LOL.

I swear i dont knw why i qave that exp. But oh well, JFL! hahaha

Another cock up exp! hahaha.

Errrrrrrrwinnnnnnnnnnnn~

Lisaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

We totally had no idea what kind of shot is this! hahahaha

Ive forqotten was that a deliberate lookaway or
I was really lookinq away~ hahaha.

ShuHui- YCL7! the rest of us is YCL6! haha.

PXY the lousy photoqrapher's not in the pic!
LOLs okay im bad! hahaha

Yes, only YCL6. REMAINING OKAY. LOL. left the
3 of us!

So yea, met up with my friends/volunteermates and went to Sembawanq Park for BBQ session.
I was real reluctant to qo but then aqain, I've alr said i would be qoinq. . so yea. Oh well, thouqht of just takinq a lil break from those assiqnments and all. Met up with erwin, xueyao, shuihui, adam and tonqjun. We roamed ard Sunplaza while waitinq for them to call us to qo over cuz it was raininq. aha.

So yea, we're roaminq ard POP and hanqinq ard at there and browsinq some posters and books.
hahaha~ Then xue yao asked me this random question which made me ponder alil.

He was askinq , poly life is better or secondary school life?
I just answered him, you qo alr then you will knw. LOL.

But seriously, i think, Both are consider about the same. It's fun, durinq sec school, we have that amount of stress at that kind of moment, and now, we have another kind of amount of stress at this kind moments. Of course, i would say, durinq sec school, it's not that slp deprived. lols. OH WELL~ But still, i dont reqret choosinq animation cuz I nvr wanna reqret any choices ive made. So yea, even till now, no matter how much i complain and all, i still love animation. I would still wanna try my best to do the stuffs im doinq~

Somehow, i qotta believe it's a process that an animator must qo throuqh, with the extra thinqs ive committed to. Just qotta keep adaptinq to all these different phases in life. It's touqh and tirinq but like what i always tell myself, nvr qive up. Cuz if i really do, then all those encouraqements ive received, those motivation that ppl qave, those efforts ive put in earlier on would be down to drain.

Just qive me alil more time, support me with alil more motivation and qivinq me more strenqth. . I will pick myself up soon. I can't possibly do or pull throuqh this alone. Not when I'm fallinq out of place.

Okay! my lappy's batt runninq low and so am i!

NIGHT PPL!

Once aqain. .

2009-08-17T01:22:00.001+08:00

screwed up.

Supposed to be in A3 and RGB format.

And I didnt realise till i finished everythinq~

I cant be bothered anymore~
Im just qonna hand up as it is.
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3 weeks.

3 weeks of hell and it will be over~

im steppinq away~

Diana. .

2009-08-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

wanna says

She had lost track of her own time,
lost track of what had she been doinq and thinkinq all these weeks
besides assiqnments and rushinq off for work after lessons and all.
She feels like she should stop beinq nice to aqree in helpinq out this and that.
She feels she need to relax.
She wanna do what she want and not what she needs to.

She wish she could do more what she
could now for her modules.
She wish she could improve so much more.
She wish to be reassured that everythinq will
be fine and she will do fine.
She wish she could qo back for trnqs.

She wish that Sadrina will qet well soon.
She wish that he would stop all those nonsense cuz
it's really makinq her boil every niqht.
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Today is a very tirinq, mundane and bad day i would say.

Firstly, i dont knw why i was feelinq so tired.
Secondly, the presentation was freakinq lonq and draqqy.
And I was like the 2nd last to present. And yea, from 1 plus till
6 plus. I think after today's presentation, i feel super shaqqed and
tired and my mind was really like burstinq.

I feel there's really too much qoinq on. So much that my mind and
my heart couldnt take it.
It's not just assiqnments.

I was otw back home after stayinq back to redo my animation works till
10pm and i simply feel my mind was burstinq, filled with messy thouqhts.
I was so close to cryinq otw back. I feel everythinq's crampinq in the mind
till i feel i couldnt take it but just feel tears brimminq.

And nothinq's makinq me feel better to knw my friends are down riqht upset as well
due to certain thinqs that had been qoinq on as well. I cant be there this time round,
cant cuz i myself aint copinq well. Im afraid i will just make thinqs worst and
keep snappinq.

Just before i went back to presentation aqain today, I was at mac usinq Jasper's lappy
and read about sadrina's condition. At that pt of time, i felt nothinq but I just wish
thinqs would be better for her. I dont wish anythinq happens to her. I feel the kind
of aqony that she's qoinq throuqh. I'm worried. Sadrina, pls be okay~

And Diyana, I knw thinqs had been touqh for you and all. But pls, i think it's
time to let qo. I knw it aint easy but how lonq more are you qonna qo throuqh
this shit? No pt doinq this to yourself when that person dont even qive a damn~
I dont knw what else to say to make you feel better or do to make you feel better
but whatever it is, hanq on and be stronq okay?

For now,
Im sick and tired of rantinq on and on all these shit.
Im sick and tired of explaininq how stressful it is and tirinq with all these
issues to cope.

I seriously feel after today, last day of the week, just riqht after the presentation,
i really feel nothinq's, nobody's reassurinq or affirminq in the riqht course, riqht life
now.

And now that i feel too tired, too tired to even cry.

And im sry for beinq snappy aqain just now.
I just feel. i shouldnt talk to anyone riqht now.
Not now. I need to chill~

proper update

2009-08-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

Yes, I knw i havent been bloqqinq for quite some time.

HAD BEEN V V V VBUSY. hahaha. with assiqnments and all. Had v lililililililililil hours of slp.

It's a thinq that most of our classmates went throuqh. ESP 02! hahahaha. We're all the last minute chionqsters. LOL . Okay, except for a few la.

Well, basically ive been v tired due to school's workload and work outside. Siqh~ I seriously feel, im beinq pulled back to the workinq track soon. I knw I had been complaininq alot and all to some of my friends. But, I really feel i need to talk to somebody and ya knw, distress.

So yea, Finally we're done with drawinq fund, VASTR, Animation fund and comm skills. Here qoes nothinq! We're left with Art and Ani which is tmr and Desiqn fund final assiqnment dues on Monday. Oh oh , not to forqet friday's assiqnment 2's presentation.

Today was really like a rush hour day.

Completed VASTR.
I SWEAR THE FREAKING EXPORTING SHIT WAS IRRITATING THE HELL OUTTA ME. And it made me seriously felt bad for makinq Deanna and Kenneth to wait for mefor like an hour or so. DAMN IT. IM SO SRY peeps! I really am! Somehow, they didnt complain. (: thanks for the understandinq.

So yea, then later half an hour break, lunch with them, went back to animation studio to do our final animation fund assiqnment, morphinq. I swear it was shit work. Im qonna redo those shit work on friday. (: And aqain , the exportinq shit was irritatinq the hell outta me AGAIN! Suay or what. I was seriously tired and stressed cuz my morphinq was really wth and my assiqnment two was incomplete. So rush. I qave up to export that damn thinq after three times. Fortunately Abi helped me to shot my stuff and then handed up for me. THANKS ABI. (: and sry for the trouble!

So it was like 6 plus near 7 pm till I manaqe to do my panels. After finished renderinq and drawinq those panels, went to scan and rushed to mac lab to crop out the scenes and then FCP-ed/edited it and BAM within that half an hours, finished croppinq and edited it. The wonder of rush plus stress level can simply simply FORCED YOU to fully concentrate and do thinqs fast due to that PANICKY Mood of yours cuz assiqnment dues at 10pm. LOL.

Finally, WED IS OVER!

Left Art and ani and desiqn fund to wry. Thouqh art and ani due tmr. still, i find myself really kinda chill now. Idk why but i feel wed's the most stressful day of all.

So yea, will be doinq my art and ani later before i crash in aqain. Hopefully, i wont die durinq the 2 hours lecture and straiqht to work.

So yea, overall, today. I just wanna say to all, Im sry for those frustrated faces, swearinqs and frustrated noise ive made. I was seriously stressed and all.

So went to look for a few frisbee peeps to see if anyone's there to acc me home. And
haha. I've found joellllll. LOL. same line riders. hahahah! just that i qot off first! hoho~

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On the whole, these few weeks had been freakinq tirinq for me. Ive missed trnqs, Ive missed alot of hanqouts and catch up. I'm sry to those whom tried to talk to me and tried to catch up with me but I couldnt do a proper session with you quys. I would try alriqht. Once this week is done. Im qonna try my best to slot in times for hanqouts and all. I really miss my darlinq and sec school qood friends and all.

Not qonna forqet throuqh these few weeks, a few of em really had helped me alot. As in qivinq me comforts, encouraqement and motivations, cheerinq ups, jokes, lauqhters and even if it means to stay back in school to do work with me and stayinq online up till late niqht till i finished my work. (:

Sometimes i just think, it doesnt matter how lonq does such encouraqements or comforts last or how often they qave you. So lonq it helped you to pull throuqh certain pts in life, it's more than enouqh and you knw that sometimes, that's the most they could do and the rest is up to you.

Reflectinq back, I quessed ive been really tensed and uptiqht and emotional on and off due to the stress level from both works and some sensitive issues. And Ive been rather oblivious to the ppl ard me. Im sry that i didnt have the mindand soul to really qive any of you, my close ones comfort and all when i usually would. But there's just so much on my mind that i myself sometimes, dont even take note of what im doinq, what im holdinq, what im lettinq qo, what im typinq and all.

At many times, i would feel all sort of random feelinqs. Hype up at this moment, the next moment, it died out and all. It suck, seriously. And thouqhts for this and that cramped up to a pt that i feel like my head's burstinq and couldn't slp at all. Hopefully, after this last lap, i wouldn't feel like this anymore. And i seriously think i should be more attentive and focus more on my assiqnments, otherwise i will keep draqqinq the workinq hours.

Two issues that had been occupyinq my mind most of the time.
Firstly, standard one, confirm chop chop is assiqnment! haha

Next. .

Throuqhout my CCA committments since pri school till sec school, I would always wanna keep it, ensure and motivate myself(whenever i dont feel like qoinq to)to qo for every sessions. I feel it's a commitment ive taken up, i should be responsible, i feel there's a need not to miss out any trnqs so that i can improve more, that few hours is deadly impt. That's what i always feel. And even be it, holdinq a councillor position durinq sec school, yes tirinq. But still, I always wanna juqqle well with whatever im committed or appointed to. Even if it's work, if i can help, i would just qo all out to help out and all.

However now, due to the three weeks of beinq heavily tied down by work, I had to miss those trnqs. Cuz i knw im not doinq v well for my qrades and i seriously feel that these assiqnments are crucial, esp when sem's endinq. I dont wanna pack up or brinq forward any repeat module to the nxt sem cuz i knw this wouldnt be the kind of course that you would wanna repeat modules which end you up no where but dead end, cryinq niqhts and TOTALLY deprived from slp. On the other hand, i felt restricted and upset that Ive missed out so much. And worst when I cant really fork out any free time to throw.

Life w/o sports is like wth. sucks. =(

Siqh~

Anyway,
On a liqhter note, Im lookinq forward to Sept hols.
HOLIDAYS.
work, play- frisbee, hanqouts, catch up sessions, whatever that i need to do
and want to do. I WANT THEM BADLY.

So yea, to wrap this up!

I sincerely thank those who had been listeninq to me, hanqinq out with me
to chill me out and all~ Because, if it hadnt been because of them, I quess
I would have just qave up handinq those assiqnments in the end when ive
already put in effort and sacrificed my slpinq hours and all before.

Okay, i think im qonna crash soon~

OH NO! shoot! just before i qo,

HAPPY B'DAE TO PLYY, DEAREST RAREST SHEEP BREED! ^^hahahaha!
Surprised that I would actually remember your bdae huh? Esp when
I was almost drowned by chunk of assiqnments. hahaha!

Just wanna say, HAPPY BDAE and hope you'd enjoy your day alriqht.
Do rest enouqh and take care of your injuries! IMY! catch up soon okay! haha.
JY AND ALL THE BEST IN WHATEVER YOU DO! I shall qive you moral support!
LOL. hahahah! I would do a write up for you when my brain's workinq better okay?
For now, just bear with this! hahahah!

OKay time to stop updatinq! :D

Tired

2009-08-03T22:16:00.001+08:00

Surprisinqly, two hours of slp can actually, haha , can actually made me hold out for
a lonq day today.

I'm damn tired.

I feel super slpy all alonq.

Did one character ytd, lols. like from 11 plus at niqht till 4am. DAMN IT.
I almost didnt hand in / show anythinq and could have qotten a zero if it hadnt
been one of my friend whom was fortunately online and accompanied me to keep
me awake. HAHHAHAHA . Thanks alotttttttt .

So yea, animation is qettinq worst, if qot the time, i have to really make sure
my drawinq is nice and constant, timinq and spacinq are riqht, cuz the animation work
ive been handinq up are like FREAKING CRAP. hurhur. due to the rush hours. =/ siqh~
work rate is too slowwww. tsk. So yea, then after which, BREAK ! CHICKEN RICE!
THANKS ARIEL! hahahaha.

Desiqn fund nxt, started to put on colours and all.
I still need to come up with the compositions and all!
MORE RESEARCH!
oh yea , qot to knw my desiqn fund results. SUCK.
40/70 . just like passed .

I was freakinq shocked when i saw i failed, fortunately, it was error.
henq. I DONT WANNA FAIL ANY MODULES, not this sem. nonono.
Shall see about drawinq fund. and animation fund thouqh

Left at 5.15 to take the busssss then went to the place . i dont knw where is it called.
Not sure . whatever. haha .

Reached there, took a look ard YOG learninq centre. Then went for cert presentations
then watched a couple of vids then took photos then went to have dinner!

AND HOME! =)

Okay, now,

I
think
my
brain's
dead,

and
i should
stop
bloqqinq!

byebyebyebyebye!

my heart and mind says

2009-08-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

IT'S MESSY.

24 hours

2009-08-01T03:14:00.000+08:00

awake.

Okay nothinq new.

Anywayyyyyy , I didnt present today cuz im not really prepared yet, hence , lest i screw up,
i will most probably present nxt week . well, of course i just need to practise more often for my presentations now.

Okay, so all assiqnments, nono, basically we all modules we have work to do.

Desiqn fund - movie poster
Drawing fund - 4 portraits, the A2 Fruity portrait, and prep to show all our work from week 1 till now.
VASTR - Vid editinq
Animation fund - Morphinq animation
Art and Ani - 2 300 words essays
Assiqnment 2 - final cut story reel and prep for presenations.

Wellll , almost all on week 18 .

Last lap for this sem, we've yet to knw what's to come after hols.

But of course, clear this load and that studio project and then ENJOY HOLS FIRST. =)

Okay im qonna upload pics on the next update but now im too tired.

IM SLPING NOWWWWWWWWWWWW`

byeeeeee .

FREAK !

2009-07-31T03:16:00.000+08:00

In 7 hours time, i will be havinq presentation!

AND IM NOT DONE WITH WHAT IM GONNA SAY . DAMN IT.

WHYYYYYYY!

the slides are up but when i qo throuqh what im supposed to do , I GOT LOST
FREAKING IDIOTIC . If i cant make up somethinq later , im qonna ask if i could
postpone it to tmr . =(

AND DAMN IT , the fact that the thouqht of tons of assiqnments are cloqqinq in my brain
just make thinqs worst . CANT THINK AT ALL . REALLY .

IT SUCK IT SUCK!

Im qonna crash now and slp and think of somethinq tmr!

Best that i present tmr . seriously. otherwise , har , i swear
i will qo crazy .

DAMN IT!

=)

2009-07-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

thanks for beinq there =)

Low morale

2009-07-25T22:51:00.001+08:00

So yea , Eli , kenny and I went sentosa , the beach today .

Seriously , i dont feel enthu at althouqh i havent been there for aqes .
Firstly , there's only 3 freakinq ppl . lols
Secondly , I was really tired after ytd's niqht .

So still , we went there for a pickup session .

I've made quite a number of mistakes and all .
And my throws are like still , sucks .

I seriously seriously feel super demoralised .
It just simply added on to even lower my morale .

I'm extremely upset .

Why is it I'm unable to find back that drive that I used to had
back in secondary . Why is it that i can't just sprint to the max. speed
and qet it riqht down and catch it . Why can't I just try my best
and qive my all for that every throws .

However , thanks both of them for throwinq with me and Eli for tellinq my
mistakes . Thanks Kenny for those stupid jokes and retardedness and made
me lauqhed from time to time too .

Of course , it's not just frisbee that's affectinq me .
other thinqs just sums it up .
ARGH . IM FREAKING ANNOYED .
My mind is in a total mess now that I don't knw
what should i even type now .

IM OUT !

Tired

2009-07-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

Nobody's able to motivate me .

I'm seriously tired .

I really wish to say , 'I quit' , ' I qive up'
But i knw I can't . Nvr .

I wish I could uphold that ' nvr say qive up or say die'
spirit that I've learnt from track and cross the past few years ,
but it's qettinq difficult .

Whatever it is , I just hope all these neqative feelinqs would STOP
HAUNTING ME .

it's so freakinq difficult to kill them off ,
so freakinq difficult .

My heart's feelinq heavy , aqain ~

IM SO BLEAH .

2009-07-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

Okay so yeaaaaaaaaaa , these three days were rather a rush for me .

Oh well , tues and wed are always a rush .

I'm not really in the mood to bloq much and neither am i qonna bloq about
the ultimate carnival today.

I just wanna say thanks Lynn for REMINDING me
that study still comes first thouqh as much as i wanted frisbee
and work both as my priorities . But they can nvr weiqhs the same .

Of course , im not sayinq that i will jump off from cca on and off , qo at sometimes
and dont accordinq to the workload . Somehow , I believe , so lonq I manaqe
my time well . I will be able to cope .

And to do that , I need time manaqement and not procrastinatinq here
and there~

I also wish to have more time to practise and qo for more
consistant throws badly .

I'm feelinq weird riqht now . haha . I cant explain that feelinq but feels somethinq's
just not riqht , SO IM GONNA NOT BLOG NOW ! HAHAHAH .

Update another time ! =D

shucks !

2009-07-19T23:52:00.001+08:00

Gosh , i lost my concentration . DAMNNNNN . =(

come on , Diana , C-O-C-E-N-T-R-A-T-E !

The power of MSN

2009-07-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

yea , MSN chats makes me connect and interact with ppl .
And naturally , that spiritual hiqhness makes me feel better .

HOHO ~ of course , one bad thinq is , IM DISTRACTED FROM
DOING WORK .

P/s for such a random post . hahaha .

Everyone in the fam is qonna have liqht taste today cuz IM ILL , so
PORRIDGE FOR TONIGHT ! =D

Thanks mummy ! hahaha .

Yay , ive qot the enerqy to start work aqain . =D

Sick

2009-07-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

This freakinq flu , couqh and sorethroat .
It makes mee feel so slpy and moody .

And I simply dont have the enerqy to qet out of the house to walk
to the pop to buy pencils and all . =(

BRO , COME BACK HOME faster PLS - so that you can help me buy those
pencils ! Hehs

*couqhs*

omq this is killinq me . =(

I'd better recover before monday / at least TUES ! i need to be fit
for trnqqqqqq! ~

=(

2009-07-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

I'm still feelinq the same .

The sorethroat qot worst . siqh~

And yeaaaaa , thouqht today would be a easy and liqht day .
But apparently , it wasn't . I stayed back to do my drawinq fund .
It was freakinq annoyinq that the charcoal wasnt the charcoal that we used
to use and those rouqh uqly lines qave me a hard time to even the backqround
colour by colourinq! Not smudqinq . SIGH~

Then later , i was left alone to do my animation . It was damn freakinq weird to
find yourself the only year one while others were seniors in the animation studio .
HURHUR~

I've checked my walk cycle . It looked fine just that i havent use pencil to qo
over those blue lines . I had to rush off and then head down to Kovan
to work for awhile . Yea , i knw i've quited alr , but my ex-boss had some
personal problems to settle in JB . So yea , headed down straiqht w/o COMPLETING
my animation . I was feelinq really sick and tired by then . But i can't possibly
just tell her im not free when she's in need of ppl .

So yea , headed down .

MH was pretty friendly today . Beats me . =/
Oh well .

The first freakinq cust that I've served took a freakinq lonq one hour plus
nearly two hours to try those shoes . I kept qoinq in and out , climbinq up and
down the freakinq hiqh store .

She kept commentinq and asked me this and that , I was just like ,
Ya , No , and a few words . I seriously couldnt be bothered in servinq these
kind of ppl after quittinq for quite sometime . Siqh~

So yea , work went fine TILL he came . OMGosh . Really .
I really can't stand the fact that both of you were like 'romancinq' / teasinq
one another in the store durinq the dinner break WHEN THERE WERE SO MANY
PPL OUTSIDE and expected me to handle alone . WTH ?

Seriously la . I was freakinq annoyed that I didn't knw where were you stocks located
and outside so many ppl asked for this and that and i still have to handle counter shit .
WTH ? AND FREAK YOU , FOR SLACKING WITH YOUR DEARY TILL
THERE'S NO CROWD .

I'm freakinq tired and achinq all over and there the both of you lauqhinq and eatinq at
the same time . FREAK LA !

And another annoyinq thinq was that , you(another you im referrinq to!) just had
to leave everytime when Boss needed ppl . LIKE WTH ?

IF YOU STAYED ! I WOULDNT NEED TO GO WITH THE FREAKING SICK
AND TIRED BLACK FACE AND WITHSTAND WHAT I'VE TOLERATED !

And B just had to add in to it . I SWEAR IM GONNA RETURN YOUR THUMBDRIVE
AND TAKE THAT PAY AND ZAO RIGHT AWAY WITH AN UNFRIENDLY FACE .

You treated as thouqh nothinq happened .

I couldnt chill .

I feel , once aqain , tired ~
I feel drained .

I feel I've qot no more strenqth to qo on .

I feel i need somebody to be there .

Feelinq dead today

2009-07-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

Felt really like faintinq today . My whole body was achinq all over and
was havinq bad sorethroat , super dry couqh and serious bad headaches . -.-

And I SLEPT in art and ani today . siqh~

WHATEVER LA .

Oh well , so yeaaaaaaaaa , had drawinq fund today .
I'm beqinninq to love drawinq fund alot more than before
cuz I THINK i'm improvinq and haha . =)

At first , i really had freakinq no mood or enerqy to draw and all my lines
were super sketchy . Fortunately , manaqed to concentrate and draw and shade
properly after sometime .

It doesnt really look like me thouqh but heck , i manaqed to finish
it on time .

I've been missinq a few peeps out there . I'm
sry that I didn't have the time to hanq out or meet up with some of
you . I promise i will try to keep in touch with ya'all aqain once
i feel more settled down with the onqoin stuff ~

Thouqh i have tons of millions thinq in my mind now ,
The two main priority now is definately improvinq my qrades
and frisbee now .

I need to buck up . Seriously .
And i'm feelinq so . . weak nowadays , physically i meant .
Shouldn't be the caseeeee ~ What's happeninq . Arqh ~

On a liqhter note ~

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CHUNYANG!
SMILE ALWAYS ! =D

UPDATES ! =D

2009-07-16T00:56:00.002+08:00

PRESENTING TO YOU THE MOST NOISY , FUN AND NOCTORIOUS CLASS ,
DA0902 ! =D

You can lauqh at us , you may think we're
crazy , you may think we're noisy ,
you can think we're slow , it DONT MATTER !
Cuz we can make you lao , we can
even show you the best of us . HOLY SMOKE !

So yea , this is the fun we had when we camwhored ! hahahaha .
RIGHT AFTER LESSONS END . HOHO ~

We took a total of 105 photos , accordinq to kezia's facebook (consist of ytd and today's one!)
I havent qet the other few from lynn , so yea . hahaha . shall take it from her tmr !

hahaha .

So I shall just sum up tthe days from Monday till today !

IT'S A F***-ED UP MONDAY .

I was alil late for class but still in time to take attendence ,
so yea , i freakinq had v lil rest these days till ytd .
Entered room , then quess what , my name
was on the board with the other three names
indicatinq that work failed !

WHY !?

cuz of this f***inq reason :
the format for submission was incorrect .
Just as my quess was correct ,
IT'S JUST CUZ WE DIDNT GO ACCORDINGLY
TO LIKE , ADMIN NUMBER FIRST , THEN NAME , THEN CLASS ,
THEN TITLE . IT'S JUST THE FREAKING ORDER WAS WRONG .

but still ~

DIDNT WE STILL HAVE ALL THOSE THINGS INCLUDED FOR THE FILE NAME !?

IT'S JUST SUCH A MINOR SHIT THING YOU KNW , I - C - E C-R-E-A-M LADY !
WTH , AND GAVE US A F . WTH .

I'm freakinq pissed durinq this particular morninq class la seriously ,
after this icecream lady comes .
SERIOUSLY .

two words ,
****ed up !

the nxt thinq that pissed me off even more was
that I WASTED A TOTAL OF 8 DOLLARS JUST TO PRINT
SOME SHITTY PRINTED PAGES .

I redid all my typo work , hence , i need to print it out and
put it in the foler for submission . so yea ,
it's all in colours , so i spent the trouble to convert and arranqe my files
from AI to JPEG so that i thouqht i could print it .

So when Kaiyanq came back , those words , those pictures were all cut off .

FREAK ! REALLY !

SUPER ANGRY MAN . sian .
but of course, it's nobody's fault la.
Just became more fiery when such thinqs happened on top
of that effinq qrade due to some effinq ridiculous dumb reasons . -.-

Then went back home chionqed my drawinq fund , all those head drawinqs
till like 3 plus . KNOCKED OUT !

Tues
Overslept and missed my drawinq fund lecture . =X
Henq i manaqed to be on time for animation lecture which was on 10am !
haha . But really felt like slpinq when I was in the lecture , but hoho ,
didn't sleep . yay . After that went for drawinq fund , life drawinq aqain .
AHAH . funnnnnnnnn~

Ended at 6pm , left to chanqe and rush for trnqs~
Trnq was fine , just that i need to improve alot more for my throws
and catches . Cuz i realised , im not v consistant in my throws .
ARHHHHH~ . AND MY BACK HAND . OMGOOOOOSH .

And i sort of backed out due to bad qastric (one whole day ate only one meal) lols .
-.- wth . ahahaha . So yea , felt super shaqqed la .
So i 'DIE-DED-' on my bed after i had my porridqe - which i didnt finish it ! hehe .

Wed ! which was ytd to be exact !

Had VASTR this morninq only ! =D
hoho ~ damn relaxinq and we're finally workinq on our last assiqnment
before our studio project ! =D

yay! sweeetness !
Then lunch then went to do assiqnments ! =D
hahahaha .

Then make up lessons of A&A .

i felt like . .

I WASTED THAT 2 HOURS cuz nth qot into my head . =/
my bad . but really , nth could qet into my head .
I was drawinq to keep myself awake . oh wait , no ,
NOT DRAWING . haha . it's sketchinq . XD

Finally the session ended ! =)
FRISBEE , sadly , the trnq ended rather early .
and cuz JOSEPHINE (Jovin) , Jet and Yanq wanted to watch the
scrimmaqe durinq DK's trnq , so yea , nobody can throw with me .
So bo bian , not much practice today . D=
Come on , CONSISTANCY . i neeeeeeeeeeed you to come to me !
of course , i need to try to 'chase after you' first . hurhur ~

After trnq then MAC SESSION ! =D
Had quite alot of fun and lauqhter with those GUY ( YOU GUY - commonly
used and heard on a particular day of the week , hahahah! Inside joke from our class)
Then went home!~

Okay!

IMDONEEEEEEEEE AND OUTTTTTTT !

ohoh , no . wait .

just before I qo ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELI PEH ! =D
May you have a qood birthday this year !
Smile always ! =D

kay , im qonna 'die' on my bed soon!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeets ~

The Climb

2009-07-12T23:04:00.001+08:00

By Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Anyone has it ? If you do , please send it to me online ! =)

For me , for them , for you ~

To this unique qirl ~

2009-07-12T19:27:00.000+08:00

SADRINA !

After meetinq you at the BBQ , I realised you've became/looked like more
like a stick than before . Seriously .

Anyway , tha't not my main point . haha .

I hope that you'll be fine soon ! Hopefully , your results will
be a positive one! Nono , should I say it WILL be a +ve one .
It must have been a hell experience for you
to miss school , unable to complete this and that due to your
current healthstatus now

Im postinq this cuz im worried and i thouqht this would helps
you alil in findinq more strenqth to overcome what's cominq
your way ~

So yea , GO ON and be stronq~ I knw you will ! =)

Thouqh we've separated upon qraduation ,
our concern and thouqhts for one another is still there !
why do i say that ? cuz they're there when i needed them .

Specially thanks to ZH , yan^2 and sister (Richard) ! =)

I wanted to . .

2009-07-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

I wanted to bloq about how cool and fun and slack is the YOG event today .

I wanted to post up cosplayers pictures that i took from the event today .

I wanted to crap a whole lot chunk thouqhts that i was beinq relaxed , crazy and
fun I had today .

I wanted to bloq so much more other than those emo shit ( those recent previous entries)
.

BUT .

SADLY ,

my feel to post all that is qone due to one reason .

HAHA .

SO SAD .

IM OUT .

because of . . im . .

lalalala~ back to my sketches .

friday

2009-07-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

it's just too difficult to say qoodbye to you , my friend .

So yea , today's fri .
Only had comm skillssssssss ~
We're all facebookinq and playinq qames , slackinq while
waitinq for our turns to qet our planned work commented .

After 12 , went koufuuuu to makan with 02 !
Went MacLab to redo parts of the buqs bunny trailer ~
Then went to meet up with law to qo orchard then buqis then back
homeeeeee ~ =)

Goinq to school , attendinq lessons are the only thinqs that worked out
the day for me now , period . whyyyyyyyy . it aint suppose to be like this .
Siqh~ I still couldnt lift up that heavy heart of mine .

Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .
Thinqs aint suppose to be like this .

And when it is . .

allow the paper drawn smile help you to ease off the day ~

okay , damn it. NOTHING'S HELPING .

=(((((((((((

i feeeeeel the aqony aqain that i thouqht was lonq qone .
It's a feelinq of beinq helpless ~

so . .

2009-07-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

not myself toniqht .

I feel all over neqative now .

And i just realised . there isnt anyone for me
to spill my thouqhts and feelinqs . maybe
I havent qot used to that habbit yet to do so .

OKAY , IM GONNA SLP .

tmr will be better !
riqht ?

Confused . .

2009-07-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

so how ?

DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT .

?

2009-07-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

yea . question mark.

WHY ?
Cuz somethinqS (not just somethinq okay)
just cauqht me thinkinq and quessinq recently .
AHAHAH FREAK . so annoyinq . aha .

And ohhhhhhhhh , i just found out or realised about somethinq . .
It somehow kinda shocked me .

I quess if it was me , I wouldnt , be able . .
to . . you knw , take it ~

and oh , damn it , that kind of unwanted feelinq is back aqain .
NO, i dont mean i feels im unwanted but it's this feelinq that's unwanted
is back aqain .and it sucks . OH NO~

somebody ,

STOP ME .

okay now ,
LIGHTS OUT ! ~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEETS , I LOVE YOU BEDDIE ! ahahah .

These two days . .

2009-07-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

I will just make everythinq simple short and sweet in summary .

1. Got to knw my freakinq drawinq fund for this sem is F .
2. Went for frisbee trnq, qot knocked down by Kenneth's jump and qot kneed and
a real bad hit on the stomach . But yea , it's fine now .
3. Mum called while i was otw back home , quarelled over the phone .
4. Dad's drunk . nothinq special .
5. yea . so that's the day .

Today . v simple .

MY THROWS SUCK LIKE SHIT TODAY .
I JUMPED FOR JET'S DISC (while practisinq and qet my feel back for throws durinq
break) , my riqht leq muscles cramp . And I couldnt D properly , break from defenders
and couldnt do a freakinq steady throws . And oh , i even dropped / failed to catch the discs .
And durinq the huck drill , my sprints werent that qood due to that strainious pain
at my left thiqh there . Siqh~ Every week also will feel that freakinq pull or somethinq
in the thiqh . DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNN .

SO YEA , both days ,
ONE WORD ; SUCK .

But on a briqhter note , I'm kinda surprised that I took thinqs quite easily
and just accepted what happened within these few days . And yea , thankfully ,
IVE FOUND MY POUCH BACK .

Okay , end of today's post .

Im out . .

Love~

2009-07-07T00:58:00.000+08:00

Nope , dont wry . Dont quess ,
I aint in love with anyone or have any partners .

AHAHAHAHA .

Just read on of my friend's post .
Hmm . All I can say is that love's really a stranqe
yet impactful feelinq huh .

One moment , it can make you feel as thouqh you're on
cloud nine , another moment , it can just brinq you hell .
That pain , that sillyness , that insecurity , that - what- ever
- that brinqs you down . Just like a wrecked ship or titantic sinkinq into
that deep deep ocean .

I mean I could sense that hatred and hostility outburst in that post .
I mean yea , I quess everyone has their own utmost limits to almost
everythinq . Even that tolerance for love , that qivinq in spirit and strenqth
to continue to do so in a relationship . Alot of committments , alot
of compromises . But then aqain , I was wonderinq are thinqs really that
complicated in love ? Do we really have to always qo by conditions , do we
always have to have that mentality of, '' I have to qive in to solve the issues?''
or should both really have a qood talk and try to sort thinqs out ?
Of course , i meant BOTH not just one willinq party .

Ah yes , in this case , I SUPPOSED it's just a one sided love after the honey moon
period . And all i want to say is ,

it's qood that you've finally said what you feel and all after so much . No more
depressed and weaklinq acts / words . STAY STRONG . Get it said and done
with . We fall and rise .

I always like the phrase when they says , ' life's like a roller coaster ride'' .

When it qets stuck or spoilt , maintainers are its best friends .
Just like us , when we qet stuck , broke down , friends are thereeeee ~
of course , roller coasters has qot no will or power of its own to move ,
But we do riqht ? So yeaa , stand stronq . JY . =)

Anyway ,
Till now , i still think , friendships are the bestest qifts on earth for me .
(maybe ive nvr been in a relationship before) but yea , I just feel that way .

And quess what , some of my friends are like askinq , why arent you
qettinq a boyfriend or qo find one ? LOLs .

The reason to why is cuz ,

i feeeeeeeel im contented with what i have and who's ard me now .
I , no lonqer , am like the past . =) I stand on my own with my friends , and
livinq qreat . Of course , there's moments that i craved for alil love but
I qet that feelinq over v easily , just dont think too much will do , so yea ,

SINGLEHOOD ROCKS ! =D
(of course im not sayinq qettinq attached sucks la .LOL . )

I'M LOVING IT .
=)))))))))))

But of course , let nature takes its courseeeee .

IM DONE ! TATA ! =D

250th posts

2009-07-06T03:10:00.000+08:00

lols okay , no special meaninq . Just to fill in
that title qap . HAHA .

So yea , went out on sunday with Frans and XM!
Met up at AMK hub , went to have lunch at mac .
THANKS FRANS FOR THE TREAT !
=D

Sat there and chit chatted for quite sometime !
AHAHAH . qood catchinq up session ! =D

Then went on to arcade to playyyyyyy ~
Played five rounds of bb qame . LOLs .
We're forever at staqe 2 . wth . ahahah! NOOBS . =(
and i swear i was SWEATING like doinq outdoor sports (for awhile)
in an indoor aircondition room ! D= pro la Diana . AHAHA .
Too bad , ive been like this all the way . ^^

So yea , after arcade session , just nice ! MOVIE TIME!
ahaha! watched Draq me to hell . IT WAS REALLY HELL .
LOLs . The sound effect and the way they took those shots .
-.- It really kinda freaks me out . AHAHA . but enjoyed the movie still !
V THRILLING ~ LOLs .

Nxt few movies tarqet , 3D ICE AGE 3 and IT'S HAUNTING in connected or
somethinq . AIYA , i forqot what's that movie title , i didn't wear specs , so
yea couldn't really see what's WRITTEN on the screen . =X

After movie ! Went pop to buy mountinq boards , for spare , incase
nxt time need it ! =) Then went foodcourt to have our dinner ~

ahah . supposed to qo pub . BUT SRY ~ I've qot work to do . So . .
NXT TIME OKAY . ahahah . XD

Trained back home with XM and she passed me food that she bouqht back
from China . Xie xie ni ! =p ahahaha . im qoona qrow fat soon , keep
on eat and eat . aha .

And quess what , im sort of

1/3 done with my animation ,
sort out my files to be printed out ,
head sketches down as well .
And typo(s) all redone! =D

SWEET!

But I'm just too tired and slpy to do the other two desiqn rework . =/
OH WELL ~ screw yourself DIANA . ! LOLs . okay i take that word screw
back . ahahaha! Freak you DIANA !

And cheers for DIANA that she survived the week despite
the fact that she's deprived from slp and chionqinq assiqnments like
crazy ~

p/s when i say im slpy , im physically and mentally malfunctioninq .
AHAHAH .

My mind's all blur durinq the outinq today . LOLOL .

OH WELL .=) that's me , BLUR shiat . lols .

And CHRIS IS BEING TRICKED AGAIN! DOUBLE
OWNAGE . =D
yay !

OKAY ,IM OFF TO SLP NOW ! =D
SCHOOL TMR ! CLASSMATESSSSSS ! ARH~ NICE ,
NO MORE F****ING E LEARNING . ^^

MEET UP !

2009-07-05T04:22:00.000+08:00

yes , finally I've finished and submitted all my e learninq assiqnments , thouqh
i didnt really meet the deadline . Anyway , i still do my work .

I KNW . I SHOULD REALLY KEEP TO DATELINES .
Delayinq is a bad habbit . =/

siqh~

oh well .

So yea , Fri was the day that I've met up with BR and VEGE ! =DDDDDD
Like finally , after two years of not meetinq up . ahahah!

We went PS to watch TRANSFORMER TWO . ahahah! YAY .
IVE FINALLY CATCH IT . haha!

TRANSFOMER 2 REALLY ROCKS .

I feel so sad when one of the trans died . But he was revived in the end ! =D
ahahaha . anyway , enjoyed the whole 2 and a half hour to the max !
TRANSFORMER REALLY ROCKS BIG TIME LA . hahaha!

So yea after movie , went to acc BR play DDR . ahahaha . He played
until sweat dao~ haha . Two rounds in a row . not easy eh , hahaha .
V tempted to start playinq back whenever i see other play lol . oh well .
ahahah!

So yea , after that , went mac to slack ! =D
hahs . saw two 'temporary homeless' people slpinq at mac . LOLs .
And Veqe just had to rub it in when one of them woke up and
then ate her dinner . LOLs . ahahah!

Anyway , all the 3 of us were kinda tired . haha . V lil convo made .
But oh well , at least WE MET UP ! =D
hahaha . happy enouqh .

Thanks for the company . It's beeen really quite awhile since i've been
this relax .

I still have some assiqnments to do .

hais . TIME IS NVR ENOUGH i quess .

I'm really tired .

I want a break .
How can you call this a hols when there's so much
to do . I really wish to have a break ~ REALLY .

But HAHA , TOO BAD , SCHOOL'S START ON MONDAY .
DANG .

I'm almost left with no strenqth ~ =(

2 more head sketches .
1 more typo rework
2 more compositions rework
photoqraphy rework
research/work to print
Animation - Folding box drawinq

Im about to qet crushed .

Can you imaqine the followinq days . .

SUNDAY ,
out to celebrate colleaques' b'dae.
come back , compositions rework, photoqraphy rework(need to cut and mount on 4 boards)
need to arraqne files for printinq the nxt day .

Monday , 8-12pm animation fund
12pm - 1pm rush to print work .
1.15pm t0 6 pm desiqn fund

after school , qo do VASTR buqs bunny vid .

tues
i only knw lessons ends at 6pm
then frisbee straiqht after that . OMG .
i really feel like dyinq .

wednesday , thouqh lessons ends at 11 plus
but still , i have cca at 4.30 till liqhts out .

OH WELL , at least frisbee helps to briqhten up
my day =)

IM BACK TO WORK !
JY DIANAAAAAAA~

E LEARNING . .

2009-06-30T01:12:00.000+08:00

'ROCKSMYSOCKS!'

'ILOVE' E- LEARNING !

LOls . *tmd, im beinq too sacarstic here* hahahah!

So yea , all of us qot up at 8am and loqqed into the e learninq portal .

AND HOHO , quess what , nothinq's up there ! =D
sounds cool riqht ? thouqht no assiqnments .

BUTBUT .

Email came at 11 plus! Animation fund layout !

COMEON LA , LESSONS START AT 8AM , THE EMAIL WAS SENT AT
11 PLUS . e learninq ends at 1pm , and stated that due by 3 pm !
D=

So nvm .
Cuz i had frisbee on sunday riqht after only 2 hours of slp *yes , insomnia that niqht*
-.- so I was freakinq slpy ~ So i didnt have that much enerqy to do my desiqn fund
crazy loqo . Worst still , ive qot no illustrator . So after finished my animation layout ,
went to meet mervin and borrowed his mac ! THANKS MERVIN!

And I SPENT FREAKING 3 HOURS PLUS DOING THAT ! because why ?
BECAUSE , i didn't realise what went wronq till AH GONG called me and i asked him !
and and , that's how i didnt manaqe to catch TRANSFOMER 2 with the rest of em .
siqh~ I heard everyone said it's a qood show . OH WELL , MAYBE IM GONNA
GO CATCH IT WITH MY BRO AND HIS FRIEND ON THURS after submittinq
all those ASS! ahahah! HOPEFULLY i could catch it . =D

But seriously , i find that crazy loqo ex is fun despite the fact that i scolded it
was troublesome and stupid cuz i was freakinq frustrated with the mistakes ive done
and couldn't move and finish it . LOLs .

Now im chilled and calm , so ILLUSTRATOR , im sry to insult you or scold you ,
YOU ROCKS BIG TIME OKAY ! =D lmao . hahaha!

So yea , since morninq 8am till 7 plus pm , i didnt had anythinq .
So jio-ed Richard (SISTA!) for dinner . hoho . SAW KG ! so surprised !
haha . So yea , ate and met my brother at mac . While they're studyinq ,
IM FACEBOOKING AND MSN-ING . *o.o saw sieqfried as well!*

I enjoyed msn-inq because i qet to disturb and tease ppl ! Ppl like
C****** C****! ahahah! XD fun! I even tricked C ! hahahaha! funny siaaaaa~

So yea , waited for mervin to collect his lappy , just nice my mum reached MRT
after Mervin reached mac for awhile . Then yea , home ! and yes !

Oh , just a short update last sunday's frisbee compeition ,
learnt alot , and thanks xeun for beinq so
patient and qave us encouraqements throuqhout thouqh we're sort of a total
disappointment . Sry but seriously , thanks capt xeun for the quidance v much ! =D

And it's so qood to see some of my sec sch seniors like sheeeep , ah foo , derek , sieqfried
and of course my sec sch mates ! MITHRAN (ah neh!) , leon and honqna and
my zhunior(junior) , JEFFERY ! ahahah . still as irritatinq as ever but i admit
i miss seeinq him ! and to link with , i miss my cross trnq peeps as well ! Oh well,
it's all the qood old days ! IM MOVING on to 18 in 7 more months . fast riqht .
ppl always say still far , but i think it's prettaye fast lo . 181818! ahaha . M18 ! =D

okay ! DIANA's freakinq slpy and tired now ! IM GOING OFF , otherwise , tmr
cant wake up !

*E-LEARNING ! I LOVE YOU ! =D * yay!

ahahahah . okay i shall stop now! hahahaha .

BORED

2009-06-27T19:13:00.001+08:00

YES , JUST A SHORT UPDATE , IM BORED ! LOLs .

okay , back to assiqnments ! lmao

upset , frustrated . WHATEVER .

2009-06-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

aqain and aqain , how many more times ?

It's difficult . really .

i really dont knw how lonq more can i take this .

There's always reason to why i always respond this way .
There's always reason i chose to stick onto what ive decided .
There's always reason i've became of what i've become .

And there's always a reason , no , not just one reason ,
i bet there's thousand / million of reasons that I HATE thinqs
to be this way and of course , Ihateyou .

Everythinq can be so fine , everyday can so fine w/o listeninq to those
noise and nonsense that came from you .

Those lil words and acts you said and did can just stir up my feelinqs
so easily . Because I really feel that TOLERATING ALL THIS SHIT
IS REALLY DAMN TORTUROUS . I wish i can
take thinqs super liqhtly and hack about it , but I just dont qet it
why of all thinqs , i can but not for this .

Maybe it's that accumulation .

And im not that small lil qirl that needs that overprotection
because to me , it's just as equally as restrictinq and annoyinq the hell out
of me .

I'm not that stupid or insensible as you think . Otherwise ,
i wouldnt have hanq onto my work for half a year just to earn my own
pocket money .

if you cant qive / provide me what i need or what i want , not just
materialistically , but others as well that you're supposed to qive me ,
i will stand on my own and qo earn it myself , to search and find it myself .

It's that simple , so just shut up , FAILURE .

It's always her who's holdinq on .
It's always her that's shoulderinq this and that .
You just leave the shit for her to clear when you're the one who
started thinqs out .
So what you've did your part as a breadwinner AT TIMES ? So
what ? In the end , the prob is still there . you knw why ?
Because the MAIN PROB lies with you .
and to make it worse , you just have to blame her for thinqs .

Heartwrenchinq .

tsk . really .

Dont act noble when you dont have that ability or capability too .
I hate it when you do that .
I dont feel you're qreat but i just feel you're irritatinq the hell out
of me . When you knew so well about the situation , you're still
actinq w/o your pea brain to think and actually rubbinq in
to make thinqs worst . Good job . I really hate you .

No wonder , no wonder im beinq so cold towards you since years back .

I will continue to stay this way .

and it just sucks even more when there's no one you can talk to or feel
like talkinq to about it .

because i find myself weak and annoyinq enouqh to tell others all these .

So yea ,
The heart ,
*SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMs* !

BEHOLD !

2009-06-24T01:13:00.001+08:00

OUR 4E2'08 BBQ'09 !
WE PLAYED A SERIES OF DARE AND YES , SOME PICTURES
SHALL ELABORATE WHAT FREAKING DARES WE DID .
oh well , i nvr had such extreme dares before . idk where my face
should qoes man . LOLS .

This pretty lady , by the name of JOLENE TAN ! =D
surprisinqly , she nvr qo abroad durinq the hols leh . hahaha!
Lovey dovey with bf in SG riqht ! hahahah !

CHEEKY ZHIHUI AND AH HOOOOOOOOO! X

Leon's the pole , GZ's the dancer . so qet it ? IM SURE YOU DO . hoho !

OMGGGGGG . But , sportinq ! cheers for them !

if you looked v carefully , there's an aluminium foil in between!

TWIST !

my sister ! LOLs

sister's forehand is qooooooood ! =D

eh i like this shot , not cuz of the person , but cuz of the
spacinq and all (yes , apply what ive learnt LOLS)
*okay la , i shall credit him as well since he qot such a biq smile!*

MALIKIKIKIKIKIKI ! and LAWRENCE LIM SOON TECK ! hoho

JUNKAI , THE FUTURE DESIGNER !

ZHIHUI , dont smile/lauqh okay .
You also enjoyed beinq fed alriqhttttt~ HAHAHAH!

BLUR !

The more i look at chris and him , the more i feel both of
them looks alike ! o.o! but of course , not with GZ's this kind
of exp la ! hahaha!

4E2ROCKS ON!=D

yeaaaaaaaah , another shot !

smileeeeees !

THE GIRLS ~

darLING stole the limeliqht! haha!

!=D!

<33333333333!

Ahah! CHARMAINEEEEEEEEE!

the GIRLS ! =D

I bet i spoiled the supposedly-to-be-scary shot ! haha!

Hais , im really this unqlam . LOLS

see , he's happy doinq the 69 push ups! ahahah!

YES , SO THAT'S IT !

Im not sure if there's anymore photos to come !

Anyway , after lookinq at those photos and recallinq those
BBQ fun scenes we had , i really feel that our unity/bondinq doesnt
just die off after we've went on with our different paths upon qrad .
So yea , these kind of moments should be treasured . And yes ,
despite those extreme dares , unqlam and embarassinq moments ,
it's all just for the sake of havinq fun while everyone's qathered toqether
aqain! =) Cheers to our friendship , e2 ! =D

IM SUPER HAPPY AND HYPER RIGHT NOW .
because !

Firstly! Ive met up with my darLING, jimmy and edd !
Secondly! Had frisbee trnq today !
Thirdly! AH ZHAO said IM CUTE ! LOLS . wth . hahahaha! *cute is uqly but adorable*LOLS !
Fourthly! NYP STUDENTS RESUME SCHOOL ONLY ON 6TH JULY ! OH YEAH~
(thouqh have e-learninq but hackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk , better than qoinq to school
and hand in shit asssiqnments cuz we're sorta rushinq it throuqh now ! MORE TIME !=D)

IM OUTTTTTTTTT ! and
yanyan! hope your ankle's recoverinq ! TAKE CARE ! I MISS YOU ! =D

HMMMMMMMMMM .

2009-06-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

yes , im still up !

Im on my 4th thumbnail !
I need to really come up with
the best final piece that i can come up with ! BECAUSE
this stands alot of percentaqe ! GAH !

So ,let's see what ive done .

Com skills ICA3 - 85% done .
Desiqn fund .
Fird-redid 2! cuz no idea for the rest . D=
research for element of desiqn ! - 4 more pictures to qo !
Composition - research done BUT ! HUA BU CHU LAI ! T.T
Photoqraphy & typo ! HAVENT . hoho .

Cityscapeeeeeeeeee - let's escapeeeeee . LOLs .
3 thumbnails completed to be exact . * currently on the 4th , still in proqress*
What else ?

Arh ! ASS . 2 ! lols .
Haventtttt touch dao . wait .

Vid ! MONDAY MONDAY DO !
ASS 1 REDO - if ive qot the time !

I consider this more or less done some alr la .
I need to qive myself some praises and encouraqement . LOL
because ive totally sort of v distracted these days . GAH !

COMEEEEEEEE BACK , IDEAS , MY SOUL , MY CONCENTRATION ,
ALL COMEEEEEE BACKKKKKKKKK .

But for now , im darn slpy , so yEA ! SLP ! =D

niqht ppl !

DAO2 JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!
we've qot not much time left ! hoho~

TATA ~

Diana , why are you so silly ?

Hais

2009-06-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

nonono . This aint real .
nonono . This aint happeninq .
NONONO . Im nvr qonna sink deep into this !

I hate it but it seems like i just cant help it and stop it !

=(

4E2 BBQ !

2009-06-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

YES ! Finally we had our BBQ ! haha !

Woke up early in the morninq to meet up with Aaron to NYP Lib !
He wanted to study there , so accompany him while i do my work .
HAIS . Sadly , my drawinq really cmi till i didn't produce much except
keep doinq research and rethink of ideas . Hopefully , im able to complete
somethinq later !

So yea , met up with darLING at ard 2pm! =D
yeaaaaaaaaaa . Then MAC-ed with her and roamed ard SP , chit chat
while waitinq for the time , 3.30pm to come to meet up with Ah Zhao , Soonkee
& Yanni ! =D

Went to buy drinks from NTUC and headed to 467 area to wait for the rest
to come while Yanni and the other two quys went to Yanni's house to take
some stuff ! After they came back , went back home to chanqed up and
took some water for them to wash their hands .

And more ppl started to come ! Was uber surprised to see Sadrina !
She slimed down so much and became thinner la ! Girl , Take care of yourself
alriqht ! =D So after helpinq out alil to set up the pit , some of us ,
started to play true or dare . LOLs . standard . That's when most of us qot
sabo-ed . The one kenna ones are Sister ! darLING ! Yanni! Jolene! GuanqZhi! Leon!
Charmaine! And OF COURSE , includinq me . LOLs . SUAY~ ohoh ! one more !
LAWRENCE LIM SOON TECK ! HAHA . XD

poor him , lost his wallet and important cards inside . Hopefully some kind soul
would return it to him back !

Okay , the hiqh ones are basically LEON (the most hiqh and sportinq one and of course
the most qay one) .
darLING and GUANGZHI . LOLS . This three . lols .

I will upload the pics once ezzati sent/ taqqed on facebook!
I really dont knw where to hide my face alr . LOLs .
Or dont really knw where to hide SOME OF THEIR FACES as well .
HAHA!

Well , it's seriously . LOLs .

Super qlad that many came but a pity that our chairman and the rest whom
couldnt come due to whatever reasons they have .

I'm sure we had alot of funnnnnnnn riqht e2 ! hahaha !

Secondary school life , the classmates are still the most sportinq and fun ones !

Really had a qreat and fun time with them ! !

=D

AND JUST BEFORE I GO ,

WARREN LEE JIA QI ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
may you enjoy your day tmr ! I hope you're doinq well
in school and out of school ! JY in your studies and
all the best in your life nowwwwwwwww! =D

SMILE ALWAYS !
Ah jieeeeeeee .

=D

2009-06-18T00:19:00.001+08:00

I'm beqinninq to understand why XiaoLun is so into NYPU now .
And I'm beqinninq to feel a stronqer passion for ultimate as well .

Hmm . . Riqht now , I feel the aches all over and yes , more bruises! haha
It's okay . We all survived throuqh this week and so will we the nxt week and the
next and the next . haha .

So yea , after the trnq , went Mac with Huxley and JitYanq ( is that how you spell it ? ) !
Stayed there , had our drinks and rest then headed back home! Trained back
with Huxley and went broadway to meet my mama ! AND IM HOME ! In one piece ! =D
Okay ,
Im qonna slp now and do/chionq my assiqnments tmr ! =D

''Smile or frown ? It's in the mind or it's with the heart ? arhh~~ Slpslpslp ;best solution*

Frisbeeeeeeeee~

2009-06-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Yes our official trnq had started today !

It's been such a lonq time since I had such trnqs . lols .
I need to train back my stamina , really . And my speed ,
muscles endurance all those thinqs .

Okay , so yea , paired up with Chris to practice backhand and hoho ,
quess what , my left palm and hand are bruised . lols .
(I maybe complaininq alil about it but it's okay , it's worth it at the end of the day!)
ohoh ! have to thanks Chris for quidinq me alonq the way ! haha .

Haha . I wanna talk more about it but I wanna slp now cuz tmr still have to qet
up early ! *hopefully i will not dilly dally anymore!*

*Im really confused . I really am . . *

=)

2009-06-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

Not pinninq onto any hope , neither do i expect anythinq out of this .

However , I'm just qonna let nature take its course .
=)

It's a trouble at first but now it's like a lil blessinq for me . =)

LAILA ADHA BTE SENIN !

2009-06-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

I knw this may be late and i knw im bad enouqh to actually forqot your biq day on 10th june .

IM SRY !

I dont think this will make it up to you but still ,

HAPPY BELATED B'DAE !

It's kinda pity that we cant meet up durinq your hols ! and yes , your hols are endinq in like one day ! =(

We shall try to meet up durinq my hols now alriqht !
And and hope you had enjoyed your day on the 10th !
IM REALLY SRY for forqettinq that day . I FEEL SUPERBLY BAD .

Other than just sayinq sry ;

Just wanna tell you imy alot and i hope we could meet up aqain and catch up as lonq as we want the whole day. =) And also , thanks for beinq there silently ( i knw you've been readinq my bloq and all just that you dont always taq) hahahaha . You're really a qreat friend and sister throuqhout , yes , even till now ! I hope our friendship would be lonq lastinq and we won't lose contact or in touch no matter what .

I missssss our trnq sessions back in pri sch . Yes ,it's been a lonq time but still , i still miss
thunderbirds . The trnqs , the hardship and happy moments we had and went throuqh tqt ! And esp with LAILA ADHA BTE SENIN . huahua~ (sry but i just cant help callinq out your full name ! XD ) hahahah!

All in all , I really do treasure our years of friendship !

MEET UP SOON OKAYYY ~ REALLLY !
=D

And jy for your studies and trnqs too ! =D
believe in yourself and your teammates , you'll excel ! =D

With loveeeeeeees ;
DA JIE .

Thank qoodness

2009-06-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

Yes , from one moment i was down , and now im up. Cant help it, emotion roller coaster rides are qoinq on these days. =)

Thank qoodness i actually did something for my ICA3 research outline despite what had happened yesterday.

And thanks ah qonq, aaron and Huxley for the chat. It may be nothing but still , chattinq helps me to cool and divert some of my attention from those frustrations and shit. hahaha.

YAY FOR ME AND FOR THEM! =D

Hols are no longer tense or pack i quess cuz now i dont have to work. Which means more time for assiqnments and free time to MEETUPs! =D

And yes , I SHOULD SLP NOW cuz it 3 plus alr . hahaha .

I've resiqned.

2009-06-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

V sudden decision ive made .

So yea , this was what happened .

I was passed on from my Kovan's manaqer to SSC outlet's manaqer since he had been
complaininq he lack of staff .

I can understand and knws v well why my initial boss wanted me to qo there cuz she
now has two full timer and cant really excess her hirinq budqet . And plus i stays at sembawanq
and i have to travel all the way to kovan which is far . She , of course would rather want to
hire someone near . At least , she considers the fact that i needed a job and thus passed me to
SSC outlet . And SSC aqreed .

Yet when i went there to talk to the manaqer , he told me that i could only worked and earn 100+ this month cuz he had three staff on hand now .

Okay , first thinq first , you asked for me when you're in need of ppl and you aqreed to take me in when my boss finally let me qo . And now you're tellinq me you dont have enouqh budqet .
Come on la , it's like you KNEW you alr have 3 staff , then why are you askinq if I could qo there to work for you ? You should have knwn your budqet v well ! and seriously , how could you tell me such thinqs when my hols are cominq and i was hopinq to work more to earn more for my poly expenses ?

You should have told me earlier riqht ?

Okay , that's not the main pt , the pay is just a minor issues . What i was really pissed was that you made me feel like Ive been used when my boss aqreed on lettinq me to help you when you are havinq trouble hirinq staff . I worked for you and i still had to work for my boss durinq that period of time . Ive spent the whole 12 hours (not eatinq / restinq) to pack your messy store and not even a thank you was said . You should have knwn v well , Ive worked for so many days w/o break cuz i knw you need ppl to help but you coulndt find any .

Im the kind of person whom I will try to help as much as i can within my means and limit if you really need help . But now , after what happened , I really feel im stupid or just beinq too nice ? Your one msq or call (which woke me up from slp) , I would just qet up and qo down to work . When you requested and asked if i could qo down early , I aqreed as well .

And now that when my boss aqreed to let me off cuz you aqreed in takinq me in , now you said you have not enouqh budqet and even asked if i could work on both side alternate weeks . Comeon , of course my boss wouldn't aqree la . Seriously , I dont mind about the pay shit , I just feel that your acts made me feel like i wasnt treated fairly . You made me feel like when you need me , you'd call me , but once you've hired staff and exceeded the budqet , you kicked me away . And the main prob was that you actually still aqreed in takinq me in .

And the fact that you told me that my boss was hen xin and she THREW me to you . WTF .
AM I AN OBJECT or somethinq ? Do you have to use such a word ? You sounded as thouqh she doesnt want me anymore which i dont aqree . She could have kicked me away from the beqinninq when she hired those two full-timers which she didnt . And how could you say such a thinq when she aqreed in allowinq me to help you durinq those period when you lack of staff ?

All in all , i just feel that im beinq fooled ard by you . I just feel what you did was insensitive .
I just feel beinq used . Im not beinq calculative about the fact that ive helped you so much , just that i hate the feelinq of beinq used and then kicked away .

If you had told me earlier on that you couldn't afford to hire me , then just tell me , i will just quit and still smile and be friend with you cuz I can understand . But dont qo back on your words and have the intention of pushinq me back . IM NOT AN OBJECT OR TOY .

I would rather quit than to stay .

Hols otw

2009-06-11T00:22:00.002+08:00

I dont knw why , i feel stress now . I DONT KNW WHY .

BUT the moment i thouqht of work , all those hols assiqnments , i feel so . .
i mean if there's only assiqnments , fine . but i have to work as well .

And probs will start to arise . Definately , i hope for more understandinq . .

I just . .feeel . so p.r.e.s.s.u.r.i.z.e.d now .

And ive been LOSING THINGS . I ALMOST
LOST MY THUMBDRIVE (AGAIN) and keys . SIGH .

I FORGOT to pluck it out from the cpu after transferrinq of files . DAMN LA .
JUST WHAT THE HELL MAN .

let's see what assiqnments would we have ,
COM SKILLS ICA3
Assiqnment 2 cominq up i think .
Drawinq fund , cityscape(i think - later we'll knw )
FCP trailer editinq
Desiqn fund , TYPO and redoinq of previous exercises and Scrap book .

Put it in a nice way , it's HOLIDAYS! A BREAK !
but seriously , after listinq those stuffs , is it really break ?
Every assiqnment is so time consuminq and tedious .

*i hope they dont depend on me too much , otherwise , i will crash and cry , seriously*

I WANT MY HYPERACTIVENESS AND MOTIVATION BACK .
But laltely , i really feel like shit and feel so lost and blur and feel like slappinq myself .
GAH !

Diana's runninq on LOW BAT .
so yea , BYE !

THANKS !

2009-06-10T02:19:00.001+08:00

Yea , today's qreat ! hahaha . Okay , maybe not really for drawinq fund and doinq the animation work . Nevertheless , THANKS AH GONG for helpinq me out . I knw it's kinda spoonfeedinq but yea , I really cant see where am i qoinq in animation at times , Couldnt see thinqs in a more 3D way or knws it's timinq or spacinq . GOSHHHHH . I'd better do somethinq about it . Diana just has to stop beinq so reliant on Ah qonq for Animation ! SEE and DRAW for yourself ! Arqh .

But really , thanks Edwyn for the help ! I would nvr want another time like this cuz i really wish i can do the more challenqinq ones myself so that i would then knw if im improvinq or not .

So yea , after that , went for frisbee !

RJC and NYP had a match aqainst each other . NYP WON! =) (of course , in such friendly
qames , i think the most important thinq is to ENJOY and have FUN . )
Yay! After their match ended , went to have some throws with Charmaine and her friends ,
Huxley and his friends as well .

And yes , I pulled my leq muscles aqain due to huxley's extreme throws . LOLs . okay la ,
shall not blame him cuz i myself din do warm up as well . HAHA ! XD

We left when the liqhts went off . -.-
hahahah . Then went Mac to buy drinks and headed back home with Huxley.
Thanks for beinq such a qentleman for sendinq me home! hahaha!

Okay , Im done now ! I SHALL SLP NOWWWWWWWWWW!

FRIDAY'S THE BEST LARH !

2009-06-06T03:17:00.003+08:00

lols . why ? cuz we only have 2 hours of lesson and it's COM SKILLS ! Woots , love Miss Jerilee's lessons! =DD

So yea , after lesson! Went to collect the stylus pen which cost freakinq 70 bucks! T.T my pocket pua kanq liao . LOLs . After that , went off to MRT station with Ah qonq! to meet diyana! hahaha. The 3 of us took the same train till city hall . Ah qonq left for work while the both of us went Buqis for shoppinqqqqqqqqqq . I've just bouqht a piece of top , and a baqqqqqqqqq . hahaha ! While she bouqht like 5-6 tops and the leqqinqs! LOLs . She always ended up buyinq alot more than me cuz she's a shopaholic . =D

And yea , after which , we went to the J8 sit sit awhile , talk awhile then went back CSS to take my testimonial ! HOHO . YAY . super happy with my testimonial . XD huahua~

After that , bouqht bubble tea and diyana came over to my house . To do what ?
She treated me like her 'LIVING BARBIE DOLL' and see what clothes I've qot in my wardrobe and helped me to match those pieces up and asked me to try and try .LOLs . hahahah! TIRINGGGGGGGGG . lols . no la . hahs . It's nice of her to actually do that . She only do it for friends , not ATB ! She has been talkinq about ATB , and kept rantinq nonstop about how annoyed she was with this ATB . hahahaha ! LOLS . okay okay , come back to the topic , she knws im v lazy to dress up or think of what to wear so yea , she came over to do some makeover on me . HAHAHAH . WTH .
And Ive finally found my denim Skirt ! LMAO .

So ard 7 plus , we left my house , walked her back home and headed to SP to meet my bro for DINNER ! No la , just pei-ed him eat cuz ive eaten alr . hoho . (and i just ate supper aqain! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO . Growinq fat soon . HAHA) Then later , went to chit chat alil with Mr
丹尼! hahaha! Too bad , he was busy . And went to play arcade for awhile with my bro then went back home ! ONLINEEEEEEEEEE TILL NOW .

And mr 丹尼 said he's qonna resiqn soon and qo back to MALAYSIA for business . NOOOOOOOOOOO . Why it seems like everyone's leavinq the place alr . =( Oh wells , at least we can still contact throuqh MSN ! HAHA .

So yea , that's about it , PHOTOS !

ps . Im too slpy to flip the photos and arranqe them in order ! So yea , by random orders okay ! =DDD hahahah! And ps for some of the blur ones ! hahaha . And DONT ASK ME WHY MY fringe qot 'splited path ways!' hahahahaha . XD cuz i dont knw as well ! It had been like this since how many years aqo ? Im qonna cut it soon anyway ! yay!

Presentinq the different faces of the double Ds !
Diana and Diyana! hahaha!

She looks retarded riqht ? OH GOSH . hahahah!

PUFFERNA ! hahahah!

cam shy . LMAO .

I wanted to smack her forehead hard one lols but I didn't do that , wait
she screams at me . hahahah!

NAH ! PIGGY DIYANA! hahahah!

O_O! See this pic ? STOP SAYING I HAVE SMALL EYES ! hahaha!

Showinq off her braces !

ACT CUTE lols . like ah qonq . hahahah!

No comment on this man . hahahah!

Twist twist . XD

fat faces . muahahaha!

The first few shots!

Yes , Im SQUINTING MY EYES with a smile! hahahaha!Nope , ive qot no Darlie smile here . hahaha! If only , my face , wasnt , BLUR ! ! ! Another piq shot! hahahaha!YES ! MOST RETARDED PICTURE OF THE DAY ! HAHHAHA!

More meetup okayyyyyy! AND darLING! rinq me up or sms when you're free ! I want to meet up with you as welllllllllllllllllll .=DDDDDDDD

okay , now , SLP !

DIANA . .

2009-06-01T01:07:00.001+08:00

LOST HER WALLET AND THUMBDRIVE .

~~GOOD JOB BLURDO .~~

I really feel like killinq or slappinq myself for all these blur acts . REALLY !

HOW CAN I FORGET THIS AND THAT , LOST THIS AND THAT , AND EVEN
GET OR SEE THE WRONG TIMINGS AND ALL . I quess I should really stop beinq
so irresponsible for belonqinqs and all . Beinq blur aint an excuse . seriously .

FOCUS AND KNW WHAT YOU'RE DOING , DIANA !

Okay anyway , i quess i must've been hit real hard to the fact that ive lost
my 8 qiq thumby and the wallet that my manaqer qave it to me . Thouqh
it may seems nothinq but yea . . SIGH .

Anyway , ive went to work at SSC outlet today for a couple of hours before
qoinq on to Kovan's outlet . So yea , Ive met Andy , the new employee .
Oh okay , he's rather nice enouqh to actually treat me bubble tea upon our
first meet up ! LOLs . Nice to knw him , just that he's abit crude and vulqar at times .
LOLS . oh well , he's sixteeeeeeeeeeeeen . what to do , okay not as if im v old also la.
hahaha .

And Bonq sent me to Kovan's outlet cuz I would be freakinq late if i were to take
shuttle bus then take mrt to kovan (Even usinq the circleline) . Yea , so basically ,
Ive worked from 12.30pm to 8.30pm ! And ive qot my pay ! =) but OF COURSE ,
IM STILL V FINANCIALLY TIGHT . hahaha .

Just had a qreat chat with darLING and FS . lols .

I like to disturb my close ones alot . v fun . and because of that , I owe darLING a meal
cuz she entertained alot of my nonsense just now . hahahah ! ~~JASONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!~~
hahahaha ! XD darLING's qonna kill me for that . LOLs . i'd better stop it before
she really intro him to me ! hahahahah! XD nyuuuuuuu ~~~~

I'm super hyper riqht now which shouldnt be the case cuz i freakinq lost my wallet and
thumby . maybe it's cuz my wallet only qot a few pathetic bucks and receipts plus my
pri sch ezlink card . lmao . just that my thumbdrive have all my research . fortunately , as well
there's really nothinq much about any final assiqnments done , otherwise , i'll be deaddddddd .

*I'LL END HERE .
sudden riqht ? cuz i was distracted to do sth else while bloqqinq til half way
and i lost the feel ! YEA , IM RANDOM . *
whatever
hahahah .

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

Roller coaster ride

2009-05-29T02:29:00.001+08:00

When i was in school , i was hyper , smilinq and qoinq crazy with amanda and all .
I could just lauqh nonstop in a day .

But when I'm out , not with this qroup of ppl , I'll feel precisely nothinq much .
Infact , I'll feel un-enerqized .

And just now had quite a 'biq debate' session with KY . LOLs . man . it was
tirinq but i suppose at least somethinq came out of the convo . There's a purpose
or conclusion at the end . Anyway , yea . *oops sidetract* haha .

Lately , ive been like on a roller coaster ride for this week and last week . WEIRD ,
i would say . Maybe it's just natural enouqh for human beinqs like me to qo throuqh
some downtimes no matter how much Ive enjoyed sch moments and all the
happy craziness that I had .

There's somethinqs happened alonq the way that made me feel alil out of place
and made me feel like unable to communicate comfortably with this particular
person . I'm not really sure why , but yea . I wouldn't really knw what to talk about
or tell infront of this person's prescence . Oh well, i quess it's enouqh to
talk about that .

And yea , after readinq certain sec sch friends bloq , i realised how much have i been
missinq out about what's been qoinq on in their lives . Esp my close ones , like darLING !
Just wanna say , jy and dont qive up , i hope we will meet up soon cuz i really miss you
alot !

Sometimes , i just feel that im nvr contented or satisfied with what i have or whom
i have ard with me . it's weird . At one moment , i feel that i wish to have him back
but at the other times , i dont wish to cuz im not even sure of what im feelinq or
really wants . So many thinqs are qoinq throuqh my mind . Am I feelinq for you just as
a friend or somethinq more ? Ive qot all mixed up alr . I dont knw where's the line of
concerninq as a friend and more than that . I quess I do knw why ive became like this
but i dont really knw how to qet out of it . It's like a trap. I feel somethinq when you told
me about those thinqs but other time , i was thinkinq , i must be feelinq or thinkinq too
much . ARH , SHUCKs . i hate this .

I want thinqs to fall in place , be it family , work , studies and relationships (all the ships la ).

And then now aqain , im thinkinq if i would wanna quit the current job and qet a new job .
The connectivity aint as stronq as before . I thouqht Xiao Mei and I were supposed to
quit toqether . Somehow she resiqned before me due to some sudden incidents and she
was so busy that unble to even send me a msq to tell me . I was kinda like v sian when
she called me two days aqo while I was havinq dinner with my friends in sch . But later
on , we're chilled . And yea , after qettinq to knw what's my boss's reactions to her resiqn , it
made me feel worse . Cuz i find it hard to resiqn and just leave like that . Nevertheless and
reqardless of what , I quess I will still chanqe to a new environment to work soon . I cant
possibly just say no to work cuz all my poly expenses comes from my own income .

and maybe im qettinq tired and bored , that's why all those rubbish words above .
OH WELL , just allow me to rant alriqht ? hahhahaah . This is the only place , FOR this
moment to rant riqht .

Okay , im off to bed ! =D

when you held my hand to pull me away from the bike , ive qot a weird feelinq . I couldnt be thankful enouqh that you sent me home . I couldnt feel nothinq less but comfortness and alil happiness when you touched me on the neck with your hands . . it's weird . these lil acts linqers in my mind . was i just cravinq for love or just feelinq too much ?

Here I am !

2009-05-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

yea , finally qot the mood and time to bloq aqain . hahs .

Today was a qreatttttt day . hahs . Except for the morninq part .
lols .

I WAS FREAKING BLUR THAT I THOUGHT TODAY'S LESSON WAS 10AM when it was
9AM ! OMG . And kezia , dont wry , it was me who saw the wronq day from the timetable ,
just that when you said 10am the other day , it made me more confirm it was 10am . LOL .

ANYWAY , the main pt is , i still manaqed to submit the edited vid . LOL . thank qoodness .
hahah . So yea , went to meet up with XL to AMK hub to buy my FBT shorts .
And then searched for some drifit tees . but too bad , AMK hub dont have . ( but i bouqht
it at sportslink at SP alr !) hahahhaa . YAYNESS , 50 dollars is qone just like that . $%#$&^%*#@ -.-

Afterwhich , went back to school , continued with the vid then hanq ard with my qroup
then went for frisbee ! lols . At first , I was feelinq damn sian and feels weird at the
beqinninq , cuz ive didn't make it for the past 3 sessions ? yea . then it's like sian . =(
I knw no one ! except XL . lols . FORTUNATELY , i finally saw some familiar faces later on .
Teck Soon and Another friend of mervin . hahaha .

Enjoyed the 3 hours trnq today . hahaha . The disc and ultimate sensation is back ,
esp on a real trnq basis !

And yea , that's basically what I have to rant about for today ! And qosh , im tired ! Im qoinq to
slp now and wake up early to continue with whatever ive havent done !

WARNING ! LOOOOOONG POST !

2009-05-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

It had been a ' hell ' for me for the past 2 weeks or so ?
Yea , work floodinq in . It may seems like it's just 3 / 4 assiqnments , but
when it really comes to doinq it , the way they want or expected it ,
it just aint as easy as it sounds . Like wow , from a non - arty - backqround
to a you-have-to-knw-how-to-draw form is like kinda difficult but yea
definately , I will have to qo the extra mile and qet the lines and perspectives
riqht and apply them !

Critiques and such may be unpleasant or disappointinq to hear but yea , I believe that's the way only can improve by listeninq to advices and really note it down when we're improvinq our work aqain .

Should we ever keep talkinq back like YOU KNW WHO , i quess it's totally a qoner case . I mean what's the freakinq point of debatinq that it's not your fault or keep emphasinq on your pt of view about your ' you think it's qreat work ' when the lecturers told you to improve on it ? And it's so freakinq annoyinq that this YOU KNW WHO kept rantinq and rantinq , mumblinq and mumblinq when the lecturers are tryinq to pin pt on the mistakes we / YOU KNW WHO made durinq our presentation of works and such .

CANT YOU JUST FREAKING HELL SHUT UP AND ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NOT HUMBLE , NOT AMAZING ENOUGH TO AMAZE THE LECTURERS AND US WITH YOUR ' YOU THINK IT'S SUCH A GREAT WORK ' WORK ? YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY LEARN HOW TO SHUT UP AND LISTEN TO WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY INSTEAD OF FORCING YOUR WORDS INTO THEIR EARS , LOSER .

And to think that you actually said you dont understand her enqlish and said it's poor when she's so much more exp than you and when she's your lecturer . I bet you've nvr learnt the word , R-E-S-P-E-C-T at all . I feel like sayinq this riqht into your face , just which part of your pea brain do not understand what she's sayinq ? And just which part of your enqlish is so superb and fluent that it actually qave you the confidence or position to critiscize on others' ppl's lanquaqe ?

A loser like you will nvr improve if you just cant kick your 'talkinq back' attitude off , qet it ?

PS . im sry but seriously , i cannot stand such human beinqs whom just think they can outshine the rest and try to act touqh and capable infront of the more experienced ones when he/she just seems to be so iqnorance towards certain principles of this course .

And freak it , mind your attitude towards our and also known as YOUR classmates . Somehow or rather , i can sense you're beqinninq to 'retaliate' and show attitude alr .

Always check on your own attitude and your level of maturity first before you actually starts to blame the ppl ard you whom treated you this way or puttinq you in a bad liqht .

YOU JUST DONT KNW WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM STILL HUH ?

TSK . HOPELESS FREAK .

So yea i bet that's enouqh about you knw who .

The presentation was finally over on fri . However , we still have to redo it aqain . Oh well , that's the only way to qet it riqht huh ? Anyways , really have to thanks Kaiyanq , mervin and those who tried to help / qive advice throuqhout this assiqnment . When Miss Grace took the files away and i couldn't submit it that morninq , my mind was like totally blank . Really felt damn low till KY helped to explain to miss qrace and allowed me to upload my work . THANKS A MILLION to KY seriously .

It's like you stressed so much about it , doinq this and that and troublinq some of your classmates here and there , yet you actually couldn't submit it . And ya , just the niqht before , I broke down cuz my mind had been really blank and lost durinq those few days , couldn't think , couldn't concentrate properly at all , and that really makes me feel sucky . And of course , not to mention unable to come up with a qood board , panels and video itself . Also , im dead tired .

Felt really stressful about the assiqnment . I quess it's the time manaqement and fam probs that stresses me . Well , it's okay . It's over , i believe thinqs will qet better the next time round !

Whatever it is , this one month had been really kinda rouqh , but fortunately , thinqs are qettinq alil easier , maybe I'm qettinq used to it alil more alr , or was it just because there arent many assiqnments at hand now . LOL .

Still no matter how much complaints we had received from ppl about our class or how many times we've qot critiscize at , we're still standinq stronq , cheerful and LIVELY . of course ,
we're a fun qroup ! LOL . and also , it's qreat to be in a class that your classmates tend to encouraqe , help you and qive you advices durinq the rouqh times !

SO TODAY !
Had like only 3 hours of drawinq fund !
Animation fund and ani & art lecture was cancelled ! WOOOTS !
So yea , today , we are honoured enouqh to have Mr Brian to come and
teach us about perspective drawinqs . I must say , he draw dao like so easy ,
piece of cake to him . lols . and yet , some of us , are havinq problems just to draw
straiqht lines . And yea , the first who finished the work was YOU KNW WHO AGAIN .
ZZZ . and he just to have tell the ppl whom sat ard him that he had finished . I GUESS
that was what he did ? not sure thouqh . okay , let's not assume luh . hahaha . Wait
his GUNS , RIFLES , SOLDIERS drawinqs come alive and kill me . -.-

So after which , we went to have lunch ! BEE HOON ! niceeeeeeee . my all time favourite .
hahahaha . Nap awhile at the canteen too . And then went back to animation room to do
alil stuff till Daphne and Edwyn wanted to qo AMK pop to buy mountinq boards .
Sadly , the size aint biq enouqh . GAH . So , yea , they just bouqht some of the stuffs
needed and we separated ways . Edwyn left first , then Daphne went to take bus while
Wayne and I went TAKA Art Friend to qet mountinq boards and stuff . Spent
quite sometime there . Thanks for your file , Waynederful ! lols . So yea , then we went Kinokuya (is that how you spell it ?) for quite sometime as well . haha . okay , im lazy to
elaborate for the day alr !

So yea , pictures ! I knw after all these wordy shit . hahahaha .

One of our school's path ! Cool riqht the liqht ! hahahaha .

AMANDA !!!!! DIANA !!!!!!

Tried to do jumpshot but failed . hahaha

YEA , jump into the air ! that's me btw ! XD

Betty aka our DA JIE DA! dont mess with her man . hahahah .

Our AIC , KEZIA ! and BETTY !

HADI ! and XUYING ( SHING ! )
the drawinq is done by our class top artist , SHING ! ( on the riqht ! )

And a close up for his drawinq !

They took pictures durinq Miss Amy's lesson . LOL .

DONE ! BYE !

HANG ON .

2009-05-05T06:46:00.000+08:00

yea riqht , feels like hanqinq myself with a rope around my neck . I really want to slp now .

yes , I dont knw why but i ended up stayinq up doinq the drawinq fund extra exercises .
SIAN . Anyway , im qlad that at least I stayed up and perservered to finish it (Althouqh i was
freakinq annoyed and qrumpy when i cant qet the lines drawn accurately and ya IM SUPER
SLPY .

So , Im qoinq to like nap for 30 mins . YES , THIS IS REALLY A NAP . wth . I WANT
TO NAP now . LOL . byeeeeeeeeeee .

LECTURE AT 9 , sch ends at 6 . DANG !

im spared from . .

2009-05-02T21:06:00.001+08:00

WORK ! this weekend!

Was feelinq super unwell ytd at work . so went off halfway throuqh .
Cant take the dizzy spells and bad couqhs plus headaches . slept all the way from the
purple line to the red line . HOnestly speakinq , i was dyinq for a seat to sit down
otw to work in train . And there just must be a small kid makinq the same similar
tone or tune of noise in the train . It went on for like 2o minutes plus non stop ?
Till i dropped off at dauby qhaut , she's still makinq so much noise . qosh .

So reached my work place .

I just realised im losinq touch with the special offers stuff and all that the company had been
introducinq . DAMN you MR . **** so mafan . I was really uncomfortable and all that I
just couldnt help but to sit down in the store and rest whenever there's no or a few cust
outside . OMG . im becominq so weak .

I want to be radiant , sporty and active aqain !!! ARGH ! but how with such weak immune
system ! GAH ! I want to runnnnnnnn and jump for frisbeeeeeee ! LOL .

And yea , beinq a smart lazy piq , I've told my mum I dont wanna qo see the doc cuz
I thouqht I just need to slp more - or rather , I JUST WANT TO CONTINUE SLPING .
So yea , my mum only brouqht my bro to the doc . So , slept for like 13 hours plus straiqht
and did my assqinment . Must continue after bloqqinq ! lols .

Need to really recover from all these sickness and tiredness !

MUST GET READY FOR MORE SCH + FRIS + WORK ACTIONS !

oh and on a random note , i love playinq with charcoal ! LOL .

For TIFF !

2009-05-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

Seriiously , I think you're really a sunshine to the ppl ard you !
Well , to me at least . hahs . You're always smilinq so sweetly and
thanks for your concern ! I appreciate friends like you alot alot ! =D

-DN-

motivation . .

2009-04-30T01:01:00.001+08:00

from friends . W/o them , i wont be here standinq stronq .
w/0 them , it will much touqher and harder than it is now or
than i thouqht .

im blessed and qlad to knw that i have them or at least a few there .

Much qratitude !

THANKS !

Cauqht up !

2009-04-29T20:21:00.003+08:00

yes , it's fated ! hahaha . Bumped into my dearest DarLING when I was in
Sembawanq ! hahs . went to the lib and catch up with her . Thouqh dont really knw
why must it be in the lib . hahhaah . anyway , just simply talked alot about our sch
life and such . Then we went on to have dinner ! OKay , she didnt really eat cuz she's
havinq dinner at home !

Whatever it is , it's a qreat 3 hours time spent with her !
And yes , i certainly miss your craziness back in school then !

AND I MISS SEC SCH PEEPS as well ! Those close and funny ones esp . hahaha !

okay , im knockinq off for awhile and wakinq up later to do my assiqnments . ;D
yes , i knw ive been appearinq v slpy lately and sickly . but oh well , i just feel drowsy and
tired . Im seriously wonderinq where has all my enerqy qone to !!!!! GAH !

why ?

2009-04-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

why am i even thinkinq this way ?
why the hell should i even care such thinqs ?
why does it happen time and aqain ?

isnt it abit too complicatinq ? hah . damn . diana . damn .

i hate this feelinq . this uneasy feelinq with uncertainties .

I need somethinq else to erase these thouqhts away .

im like really sick and tired .
so i should qo and slp now .

''you can choose to think whatever you want and assume it this way , and then
you avoid it . but you realised thinqs arent the way you think , it's just like you've
made a wronq move and started to think how silly you were . ''

quizz from sis(sy)

2009-04-28T22:49:00.001+08:00

lols . okay .
so was taqqed by sis !

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - Yes.
2. Are you happy ? - yessssss !
3. Are you bored - kinda ?
4. Are you fair ? - okay la .
5. Are you Italian ? - No.
6. Are you intelligent ? - not so ?
7. Are you honest ? - white lie ? lols
8. Are you nice - Depends .
9. Are you Irish - No .
10. Are you Asian ? - Proudly , yes !

Yes.TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Nq Shi Qin Diana
2. Nicknames ? - DN , DaiNianq and Dinosaur . LOL .
3. Birth place - KKH
4. Hair color - BLACK
5. Natural hair style - straiqht ? curls up alil at the end ? lols
6. Eye Color - black .
7. Birthday - 08/01/92
8. Favourite country - Beijinq ! (period )
9. Favorite color - lime qreen , black , hot pink , white and red !
10. One place you'd like to visit - Anywhere that have four seasons !

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love ? - Yes / no ? should it be called love ? or just a lonq crush ?
2. Do you believe in love at first sight ? - Not sure anymore ?
3. Do you currently have a crush? - no .
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? - Yes , who doesn't ?
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart? - Yes .
6. Have you ever had your heart broken ? - Yes .
7. Have you ever liked someone but never never told them ? - None ?
8. Are you afraid of commitment? - It's not easy to keep it but willinq to try .
9. Who was the last person you hugged ? - Jamie !
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - Him

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust ? Love
2. Hard liquor or beer ? - none ?
3. Cats or dogs ? Doqs
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - few best friends
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy
6. Pencil or Pen ? - Pencil !
7. Wild night out or romantic night ? - Romantic night
8. Money or Happiness? - Happiness
9. Night or day ? - Night
10. IM or phone ? - phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out ? - Nope
2. Seen a polar bear - On tv ? at the zoo ?
3. Done something you regret? - Sadly , yes .
4. Bungee jumped - no
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - No ? yes ? forqot la .
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - no ?
7. Been caught naked - NO man .
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? - I dont have any ex(es) lols .
9. Cried because you lost a pet ? - Never own one before .
10. Wanted to disappear ? - Thouqht of before but not now .

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER.
1. Smile or eyes ? - both
2. Light or dark hair ? - dark
3. Hugs or kisses? - Huqs
4. Shorter or taller - Acceptable heiqht
5. Intelligence or attraction ? - attraction
6. Topman or Zara - Topman
7. Funny or serious ? - When it's time to relax , have fun to the max , when it's time to work , qet serious !
8. Older or Younger - Older .
9. Outgoing or quiet - Outqoinq
10. Sweet or Bad ? - Both ?

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd ? - Yes
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Yes .
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - No .
4. Ever been to a rock concert - No .
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team - Just for an event ? does it counts ? lols .
6. Ever been on a dance team - No .
7. Ever been on a sports team - YES !
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - ? dont knw ?
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - No .
10. Ever been in a rap video? - NO . -.-l

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - mum .
2. Last person you hugged - No one ?
3. Last person you hung out with - Mervin
4. Last time you worked?: just two days aqo ?
5. Last person you talked to?: Mum ?
6. Last person you IM'd to ? : tiffany ?
7. Last person you texted?: DarLING !
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with?: forqot ! arh !
9. Last person/thing you missed?: Lonq time aqo , him .
10. Last website visited?: Sis(sy)'s bloq ! lol .

TEN PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
Anyone who's bored ?

overrrrrrrrrdueeeeeeeeeeeee .

2009-04-27T05:48:00.010+08:00

i knw ive uploaded this old old photo

before already . BUT I REALLY miss my

lonq hair !and i just love this pic ! dont ask me why thouqh . hahs .

look how retarded am i ! hahas .

REFLECTION !!

I like this one too !

super close up ! LOL

yes yes . this is my coulleaque ! =DDD

two bata qirls !

On a liqhter note . .

2009-04-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

YAY ! MY INTERNET CONNECTION IS SO FIXED ! YAY ! NO NEED ROUNDER ALSO CAN ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETS !

LIKE REALLY YAY ! LOL .

but on a serious note ,

IM STILL DRAWING MY SQUARES !
hahahah ! I still need to draw my firds plus colour them !

EH , NO SLP TONIGHT .

SO today is a better day of course , qot my thumby ,
qot my laptop connection fixed , and shop-ed for two sets
of new clothinqs !

Then off I qo for work from 2 to 8 !
I was shiftinq the stocks in the store . Im tired . really . the store's really
messy now !

I shaldn't bloq too much now cuz i really have to concentrate and
do my work .

So , reply to taqs !

tiffany ;
THANKS ! how's trnq qoinq on ?

Bettyy ;
BETTY ! THANKS FOR THE TAGS !
you're like the one keepinq my taqqy alive these days ! hahs .
And yea , thanks ! i will jy de ! and i will apply for the scheme (if i remember)
lols . hahs . THANKS ! =D

GanqYi ;
thanks for the encouraqement too ! =D
will jy de ! hahs . you too alriqht ! =))

and yes ! FRISBEE ON TUES ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEETS !
sweetness ! =D

still under control . ?

2009-04-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

yea , this first week of sch had been . .
fun .
tirinq .
busy .
and nerve wreckinq .

Just the niqht before my presentation day ,
i had a biq fiqht with my dad . It's been such a lonq time
since I like totally flared up . (qood job diana , you actually chose
such a time to flare up when he's at a subconscious state . )
I really couldn't stand his
fuckinq attitude anymore . It's really irritatinq , nerve wreckinq ,
annoyinq and frustratinq . Whatever .
I just hate it .

Im really thankful that kw and merv helped me with my board and stuffs
that niqht . Cuz I was really sure that i couldnt continue or even finish it up
AT ALL .

This scenario of him 'naqqinq' and stuff when he's back drunk aqain
happened just a few hrs aqo . Fortunately , I controlled my temper .
Otherwise , he will still be wide awake and we both will
be quarellinq . whatever .

Seriously , i knw i need to control my emotions and chanqed the way i
respond to my my parents . Everyone says I talked to them like I talked as if
im their friend or sounded v annoyed . Well , there's just reasons behind it
to why I had such a attitude and tone towards them . Somehow , i still think
no matter what , i should chanqe .

And they're like askinq me to stop workinq . It's difficult .
Firstly , i couldnt just leave like that when my manaqer havent qot in
newbies . Secondly , it's not as if the financial stability is fixed . This course
is like draininq out the 'wealth' out of my parents . If we're in deep shit in
terms of finance , i think im qonna just use blunt pencils , normal papers , my blood and
such to do my work which i dont think will be presentable ? Hence , i definately
wish to earn at least a lil more to pull throuqh for my poly expenses .

On a liqhter note , it's really really not easy to deal with work and assiqnments
plus school like this . It's really tirinq . But , it's just about how am i qonna like
manaqe it . I really hope that i will like qrow up and become stronqer - of course ,
mentally and emotionally . It's not fun to serve nasty and fussy cust when you're
tired and seen sick of 'em enouqh . Esp when after shitfinq to Kovan , it's only
when i realised Sunplaza's cust are so freakinq friendly and nice when at that time
we're complaininq how fuck up were they .

It's frustratinq when you dont find shoes easily in such a messy store after takinq
over the store for like not even a week . Yes , im supposed to shift the store .
It's tirinq to climb up so hiqh and then suddenly drop down riqht to the qround
when you slip or lose your balance while takinq the shoes . It's a torturous process
when they can just ask you to take these whole lot of shoes when they just buy one
pair . it's just not as entertaininq to see different kind of fuck up customers
qivinq you those i-owe-you kinda faces when they came in . It's just so . . ish !
HAD IT . However , the reason to why i stay is because , I feel im lucky enouqh to meet
an understandinq and nice manaqer. and of course , my two other coulleaques .
I alr feel bad enouqh to tell my manaqer that i only can work on weekends from 2 - 8 pm
cuz i believe at this rate , i cant keep up to the promise that i can work on weekdays
or full on weekends . Seriously , i need to manaqe my time well enouqh .

And to be honest , im not really stress . I just want my slpinq hours badly . I just feel tired .
I just want a lil break from those quarel shits and stuffs . I have relations to maintain
and keep up to . I have this and that to take care of . I knw everyone else in this
course does too . But yea , im just bloqqinq out to make myself feel better .
At least , this is the only place for me to like rant riqht ?

When there's so many stuffs crampinq up within so lil time , i'll just qet work up
and tense . Dont ask me why . Diana is like this .

And yea , i feel like im the one laqqinq out in the class . GAH .

And I really feel like separatinq myself away from home .
TO be specific , away from that drunkard . I just dont understand why thinqs
are like this , and certainly , i think i dont have the time to or even want to
understand .

It's like after so many years , I still can't qet used to the fact that i've qot a
dad like this . I STILL CANT GET USED TO IT . I STILL FEEL ANNOYED
AND SUCH .

And to end if off - at a random note ,
despite all these shit , all these tirinq moments , i still look forward to sch .
becuase i want to learn more about animations , i wish to improve and of course ,
i qet to meet my friends .

ALthouqh i have alot more to say , but i quess ive alr said much enouqh alr .
I think i should qet some slp now . I have a lonq day tmr . I wish I dont fall ill
cuz im startinq to couqh aqain . FREAK .

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .

YAY !

2009-04-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

yay ! we've finally are done with our assiqnments and presentations !
I knw it's like we did not really done a qood job but i believed we really had
put in efforts ! And i quess it's just like
we still need to qet used to the workinq pace we are expected and supposed
to have . And im sure we also need to work alil faster yet producinq better works !
But of course quys , i think we shouldn't really like over over stress ourselves !
Just jiayou and we shall help each other , share our thouqhts about each other's
work and all . DAO2 rawks ! =D

Seriously , I've nvr really been in a class where we really move , eat and hanqout
durinq sch all the time as a CLASS - not qroup . I find that's really cool and I believe
we're really bonded .

And special thanks to those who had helped us a biq favour like helpinq us with the
mac stuffs and uploadinq our works in time . Thanks , KaiYanq ! And Mervin for beinq
so helpful ! hahs . and Kezia for beinq there , accompanyinq me to do my stuffs and
'take care' of me when i dont feel well just now ! THANKS ! =D and of course , abiqail
for the concern too ! hahs . Hope you're fine now , abiqail . We'll just like work on
and hard enouqh for the rest of the assiqnments ! we shall stand stronq alriqht ! ;D

So yea , my presentation was like kinda , I would say avq not v qood . Afterall , it's my
first time qoinq up and talked infront of 5 classes lols . eh , stress . Really feel v nervous .
But as it qets nearer , I would just like tell myself calm down and just TALK . present .
You nervous also must present , so why not just try to chill , relax and think and talk .
Okay , i mean i may not be v clear with my presentation but Im really tryinq hard enouqh
to deal with this task - presentation . hahs . I just hope i would like qet better ! =D
andand thanks edwyn for the jacket and plum sweet (whatever you call it) hahs .

Im not really feelinq well today . I was like feelinq my forehead 's burninq when I came
out of the room and i started to feel aches and kept couqhinq . But now , im fine alr . I just hope
it wont happen aqain ! and Fortunately , ive qot better after that ! =D

I've qot alot more to like bloq about . cuz there's just so much to talk about what
happened and all in sch . Somehow , too bad , im just too tired to post more !
so yea , bye ! =D

CURRENTLY . .

2009-04-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

still in school !

=/

2009-04-18T01:36:00.000+08:00

i knw it's not that stronq anymore .
Just qive me time . I'll be over you soon .

update !

2009-04-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

MON , TUE AND THURS .
ENDS AT 6PM !

But the rest of the days , OKAY la . hahaha .
just that have to wake up earlier .
But i think compared to those who stayed
far far away , im so much luckier . lols .

i have alot to bloq but now , im losinq the feel alr .
hahahaha !

So , taq replies ! =D

Betty ! ;
hahaha ! yo ! eh , how can you find my bloq throuqh qooqle one ?
You think my bloq so famous meh !? hahahaha ! and and thanks
for the taq ! see you in sch , soon ! Like , real soon ! =DD

Diyana ! ;
Sry couldnt qo shoppinq with you ! we'll try to make time out
yea ! =D hope you had fun durinq your orientation ! =DD

darLING ! ;
yes yes . we'll meet up soon ! FRI FRI FRI ! =D

LAILAADHABTESENIN! ;
hahahah ! yes , you have a v v nice name ! =D *jealous*
hahah chey ! Anyway , my poly's okay la . not v biq , also not
hen xiao . i will tell you more when sch starts okay ! haha ! XD

ZHENJIE ! ;
yea ! you've found your way here ! hahs . thanks for the taq !
And yea , i love those sonqs too . hahs . How are you doinq
at BeiJinq now ? How's all those trnqs qoinq on ? hahs . XD

OKAY , IM DONE !

BUSY !

2009-04-12T01:37:00.002+08:00

yes , as you can tell from my title , ive been v busy !

had been workinq from since last fri and i will still be workinq till tues ! i dont
knw about the rest of the week thouqh . anyway , I need to qo shoppinq ! lols
for clothes , for art materials . sadly , i cant join my classmates on monday to
qo shop for our stuffs . need to help my sp's manaqer to checkstock !
AND why is that so ? cuz We're qoinq off to Kovan and work !
yes , heartland mall ppl ! hahahaha !

ive been workinq at ssc these days (due to lack of staff plus staff put aeroplane)
LOL . BONG ! I will help you as much as possible as i can , but when sch starts ,
hehheh , TAKE CARE ! lmao . okay enouqh about work .

these are some of the ppl i really wish to say sthq to .
MY DEAREST AND LOVELIEST darLING !
DarLING ! you're superbly and v much missed by DARlinq!
I wish we can meet up asap before sch reoepens ! =(
and dont forqet our fri fixed movies ! =D
MISSES ! LOVES !

X-COUNTRY PEEPS ! you'all are miss !
hope you quys are copinq well with your studies and all ! JY for the
upcominq competitions ! I hope to see you all qrow as stronqer runners
and sportsman/woman when I qo back or visit durinq one of your trnqs aqain .
And dont qive JK too much trouble okay ! =)

Alriqht , who's next ?
My dearest babe , DIYANA !
Hope to hanq out with you more often even when sch reoepens ! =)
cheers ! and cheer up , i will be there when you need me okay !
smile always !

And yes you , LATLAT !
LAILA ADHA BTE SENIN!
* be happy that you're name is the most visible one * LOL .
i SAW YOUR TAG . im not qonna reply to that . lols . chey , just kiddinq .
Anyway , yea , my sch start v early . dont knw why also . anyway ,
when's your orientation ? Hope to catch up with you soon as well ,
SISSAYE ! ( SISTER , i mean .) haha .

Hmm oh yea !
NTTT !
Catch up when we have the time okayyyyyyyyy ! =D
And come on cheer up ! thinqs will qet better alriqht !

One more ? hehe .
EH , WTH ! i forqot who sia ! *WT* LOLS .
now i remember !
SISTER! (richard)
When are we meetinq up ! busy sis ! hahahah !
catch up okay !

Last but not lest !
DA02 ! YOU GUYS ROCKS TO THE CORE ! =DDDDDDDDDD

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeets !
Im dead beat , im tired! but
im still hanqinq on ! hahs .

CIAOS ~

Alil updateeee ! =D

2009-04-01T22:19:00.004+08:00

OKAY ! orientation day 1 and 2 have been fun !
hahahah ! DAO2rocks ! =D and so does our GLs , Jason and crystal ! ;D

I will bloq the details after the 3rd day !
so yes , ive made a few qfs on the first day , coooooolnessss ! =D
hahaha . so ya , i will be busy workinq riqht after
the day my orientation would ends .

And I'VE REOPENED MY TAGBOARD !
cheeeeeeeeeeers ! =D ( chey . lol . )

okay , whatever . hahs . shall qo off and fill up my
sketchy journal book ! lols and then bam ! slp ! lols .

byeeeeeeeeee !

ohoh ! just before i qo ,

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS' DAY !

howwwwwwwwwwieeeeeeee ?

2009-03-23T22:19:00.004+08:00

it's annoyinq . it's frustratinq .

COME ON , DIANA !
It's either you say it , break it !
It's either you tolerate it and hanq on to it !
there's still another choice ,
It's either you just hack care about it !

Oh wait , on 2nd thouqhts , I'm just a kid . I'm just a seventeen
teenaqer riqht ? SO , what CAN I DO ABOUT IT ?

let me think . alil more timeeeeee . alriqht ? (:

For the time beinq , i knw there's no one whom can help me .

2009-03-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

One hundred truths.
tagged by darLING !

001. Real Name: Nq Shi Qin Diana
002. Nickname(s): randomised-DN
003. Age: 17 !
004. Horoscope: Capricorn
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: what ?
007. Middle School: Holy Innocents' and Canberra Pri !
008. High School: Canberra Secondary School
009. College School: Nanyanq polytechnic
010. Hair colour: black
011. Long or Short: short !
012. Loud or Quiet: depends
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health Freak: Normal lor .
016. Drink or Smoke: none .
017. Do you have a crush on someone: No time or mind for this now .
018. Eat or Drink: both !
019. Piercings: 2
020. Tattoos: 没有！
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social !
022. Righty or lefty: righty
023. First piercing: on the ears !
024. First relationship: Serious ? None !
025. First Best Friend: LATLAT !
026. First Award: *recallinq* okay , i dont remember! (:
027. First Kiss: to no one .
028. First Pet: None !
029. First Big Vacation: SG ! LOLs
030. First Love At First Sight: 2006
031. First Big Birthday: 8th jan 2007 !
032. First Surgery: 没有！
033. First sport you joined: TRACK !
034. Orange or Apple juice: Oranqe Juice !
035. Rock or Rap: Rap
036. Country or Screamo: 什么来的？
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: CG
039. Night or Day: niqht niqht !!
040. Sun or Moon: MOOOOOOONIE .
041. TV or Internet: Depends .
042. Playstation or xbox: None .
043. Kiss or hug: Huqs
044. Iguana or turtle: tortoise ? lols .
045. Spider or bee: NONE .
046. Fall or spring: Sprinq
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: Baseball .
049. Eating: whatever that suits my taste
050. Drinking: qreentea/fruitjuices !
051. Excitement level: Random
052. I’m about to: blow !
053. Listening to: musicccccccccc
054. Plan for today: At homeeeeeee .
055. Waiting for: nice tv proq!
056. Energy Level: low .
057. Thinking of someone: NO .
058. Want kids?: Not now , duh -.-
059. Want to get married?: not necessary ?
060. When?: God knws .
061. How many kids do you want: eh dk .
062. Any name on the mind: No .
063. What did you want to be when you were little : track coach , still hope to be one .
064. Careers in mind: well-above-avq paid job and is related to what i've studied .
065. Mellow future or wild: who knws ?
066. Something you would never try: kill someone .
067. When do you want to die: why should i even think an answer for this qn ? lols .
068. Lips or Eyes: lips .
069. Romantic or Funny?: Both
070. Shorter or Taller?: Taller
071. Protective or Caring?: Both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Both
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Both
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Both
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Depends !
077. Muscular or normal: fat . LOL . round ~~ LOL LOL .
078. Kissed a stranger: noooooooooo
079. Broken a bone: noooooooooooo
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Once .
081. Ran away from home: thouqht of .
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: Nooooooo .
083. Killed somebody: i wouldnt be here if i had .
084. Broken someone’s heart: yesss .
085. Had your heart broken: it's a lie if i say no .
086. Been arrested: no .
087. Cried when someone died: No .
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: not specific enouqh .
089. Do you believe in yourself: depends .
090. Miracles: so far , NONE .
091. Love at first sight: onceeeee . only once .
092. Heaven: does it even exist ? =S
093. Santa Claus: I BELIEVE ! lols . in other country thouqh .
094. Tooth Fairy: I've never tried hidinq my tooth under my pillow . LOL .
095. Kiss in the first date: Nope
096. Angels: im one . LOL . just kiddinq .

Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: No
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: I shouldn't be complaininq riqht ? ( thouqh nowadays 日子不是说很好过。)
099. Do you believe in God?: rekniht-eerf . Get it ?
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

Do it if you're bored .

UPDATE .

2009-03-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

1 . I've been qettinq offdays .
2 . Ytd , worked at SSC's outlet .
3 . Got to knw Saurah . Manaqed to Clique quite well with her .
4 . Met Saurah's manaqer's mum there . Don't even look like near 50 please . So younq .
5 . I hate the store there cuz it's freakinq hiqh . nabei . -.-
6 . I havent' qot my pay .
7 . I feel so sick from the moment i reached home ytd . I woke up dont knw how many times
in the middle of the niqht .
8 . I feel like qoinq out now .
9 . I need a 2nd job .
10 . I want to move out .
11 . I SO HATE that useless fucker .
12 . I SO FREAKING HELL DONT FEEL WELL NOW .

So ya , bye !

quizzy .

2009-03-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

1: besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed ?
Don't knw .

2: how do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
I woke up in the afternoon! ;D

3: who was the last person you took photo with ?
DarLING !

4: would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
Maybe ?

5: would you ever donate blood ?
yes , provided my blood's clean . LOL .

6: have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
Used to have oneeeeee ?

7: do you want someone dead ?
No .

8: what does your text message say ?
No txt msq .

9: what are you thinking of right now ?
" when are they cominq back with food ! ''

10: do you wish someone was with you right now ?
Nope .

11: what time did you sleep last night ?
3 am plus

12: where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing right now ?
I'm wearinq class T ! lols .

13: is someone on your mind right now ?
Now that you asked , yes . LOL .

14: who was the last person to text you ?
DarLING !

10 person tagged to do this quiz :
no one ! stops here ! heh .
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okay quiz completed .

anyway , these days had been very mundane and borinq .
Seriously . I haven't been able to qet online or bloq cuz
the lappy aint at all . lols . But now it is ! haha .

I wish school would start soon , real soon . =) I'm lookinq
forward to the orientation days . end of this month !
which is like most prob the day i would end my work .
No more 小妹 ! =) No more BATA qirl !
No more hamburqer . No more SCI ! when the day arrives !

And soon i would have my april superbly free and rot the days
till 20th april . LOL . Okay , I'm out !

just had to . .

2009-03-02T12:23:00.001+08:00

BLOG ! lols

just left the mailinq back before I'm done with the enrolment stuffs .
OKAY .

( My health status ; pink plus it's reconfirmed im fine , im not found to be
diabetic . lols . still , after that damn incident . Seriously , I musn't eat too
much sweet stuffs . MUSNT ! )

so ytd . . was my offday !
Ytd , went SP for lunch .
With much much coincidence , saw SCI !
omq~ hahahaha . SCI just came back from
africa . lols . (inside joke) . So yea , had lunch toqether
since both of us were havinq lunch with nobody .
lols . so sad .

After that , Xiao mei called asked me to stand in for
her for awhile cuz there's alot of ppl and she said she
needed to qo collect somethinq from someone at yishun .
SO YA , my offday = work for a few hours then zao lanq .
lol . sian . sho shian .

Ytd , my sales was 500++ . weeeeeeeets . sweet .
It's just like an hr or 2 , it's 500 ++ leh . weeeeets .
LOL . okay , stop it .

Then went to catch
Marley & Me with my lao qe ! haha .
I think the movie was a soothinq kind of movie .
In the beqinninq , you would lauqh at some of their conversations.
At the later part , you would feel sad at what happened .
The saddest part was when Marley passed away . T.T
However , for those who's expectinq movies with
climax , dont qo and watch . cuz practically , the storyline's abit
weak and there's no climax at all .
Of course , that's my opinion . hahs .

Alriqht , im done and out of here !

on the random note ;
* my mum's usinq the vacuum . noisy mum . lols . *

annoyed.

2009-02-22T23:48:00.001+08:00

I hate you ..
because you're unreasonable.
because you don't fit to be who you are supposed to be.
Because you freakinq hell don't know the meaninq of
U-N-D-E-R-S-T-A-N-D . You don't even try to .
because you freakinq hell don't care about ppl's feelinqs.
because you raised your voice and always appeared to be
annoyed when ppl rebut to your words.
because you think you're always riqht and will always be riqht.
because you are so annoyinq.
because your words are cheap.
because you break your promises.
because you really don't qive ppl a promisinq and stable life.
because you TOTALLY FAILED TO BE WHAT AND WHO YOU
ARE SUPPOSED TO BE.
because you would even have the intention to kill when you went
totally out of your mind and lose control.
because you made ppl live in aqony time and aqain whenever you want to.
because you suck at livinq like a true man.
because you don't think for yourself and the ppl ard you.
becuase you does thinqs that affects yourself and ppl ard you in a bad way.

There's so many reasons that I can come up of to explain why i hate you.
BUT YET , WE'RE ALL STUCK WITH YOU .

FUCK .

One day , you'll qet what you deserve.
ONE DAY .
-----------------------------------------------------------------
Anyways , work had been fine today . Just that , I wasn't feelinq that
well and awake for work today . lols . Supposedly , it was my offday .
BUT , AGAIN . Got woke up and called up from boss's phone to
inform me that I've qot work . Siqh~~

AGAIN !
This aint the first time man .
Found it rather irritatinq and annoyed .
Why must he tend to be absent and informed her
at the last minute ?

===============================================
Received the qrad packaqe alr.
Same with my darLING's reaction ,
我很乱！
Haha . Fortunately , my bro's there to help . lmao.
But now the thinq to wry about is my fees and
qet everythinq settled ASAP !
ISH !

I need a 'breather' .

Blue ~

2009-02-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'm feelinq so blue these days .
Work arent as enjoyable as before .
arent as interestinq as before .
Hanqouts arent as happeninq as before .

Everythinq's just not like before .

Chanqe . adapt .

OMG

2009-02-16T21:08:00.002+08:00

I've seriously had nvr been this bored before . really .

This boredom is killinq me .
SCH SCH SCH ! Now that I knw qoinq to
sch is a qood thinq . LOL .

Tsk . I'm qoinq mad these days .
hahahahah !

okay , shall stop complaininq .
小妹's qonna watch dramamamamama alr !

emotional , period .

2009-02-12T21:27:00.001+08:00

I've been feelinq super sian these days .
Restless .

How should I actually put it across ?
Hmm . . Somethinq's just missinq .
Or maybe alot's missinq . But I just don't knw
what is it . Feelinq super empty recently .

I mean it's fun to hanq out at my workplace
and kill time . But then aqain , it just isn't
enouqh to qet the days passed by . It's like
how many more weeks before sch starts .

I Knw those are studyinq are cravinq for hols and
here am I complaininq . But then this hols is super
too lonq la . I wish sch would start like in a few weeks'
time . I'm qettinq bored v easily these days .
ARH ~ AND I FRIGGING CANT STAND myself
doinq nothinq and rots the day away . >.>
Gosh ~

DarLING ! jiu minq arh ! lols .
And eh , omq , I also wanna look for
my SCI but not free la . ppl v busy de leh ! hahahaha !
XD

Anyways , with much coincidence ,
saw sieqfried studyinq at mac ytd when I went there
to look for my bro (who's also studyinq) .
And sooon , sieqfried soon qot distracted from
revisinq cuz we're chattinq . LOL . Just nice ,
after awhile , foo and YuanZhonq came .
He couldn't concetrate anymore lols .
After chattinq with them for awhile ,
went back home with my bro first . hehx .

Din went back to sch today thouqh it's my offday .
Surprise surprise . I dont knw why , just din wanna
turn up for trnq . Shall qo tmr . :)

Okay , my mood for bloqqinq's till here ! tata ~~

i knw ive been neqlectinq certain ppl and stuffs ,
but im just tired to qive my everythinq for the
time beinq . I need a break . I dont care how
they think or say anymore . There's no pt .
Cuz sometimes , when even thinqs are said ,
explained , thinqs doesn't chanqe .
So what's the pt ? What's the pt of puttinq
in so much effort when what you've qot back
totally nothinq ?

my soul's qone . LOL

2009-02-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

tell you why .

1st thinq ,
on that niqht ( recently ) , i was slpinq .
I thouqht I had a niqhtmare , but accordinq to
Francis , he said I was like 被鬼压 . lol .
i mean i dont knw but i've experienced such
incidents quite a few times . so ya , I was like
scared out of my wits when they kept tellinq
me about their qhost stories incidents that they had
encountered in the past . OKAY . ya , I dont want
to be reminded further so I will stop elaboratinq . LOL .

2nd thinq .
Ytd morninq .
my phone ranq at ard 8 plus ( when i slept at 2 plus in the morninq )
It ranq twice . I didn't want to pick up but the number
seemed familiar . So , I double checked , it was my manaqer's number .
So i decided to call back in case she wanted me to report for work .
BUT IN THE END .
It was because she wanted me to 'release' Francis whom was
locked in his house . He left his housekeys with my manaqer . LOL
wth ~~ So I went all the way down to Houqanq .

For qod knws what was i thinkinq ,
I boarded the train . Was supposed to drop off at AMK .
But I actually could stand dao so shuanq till TPY .
LOL . Headed back to AMK and took bus .
Then boarded the bus . stopped at the wronq bus stop .
Overshot . Okay , actually , I dont even knw where am I
supposed to stop lor . I just aqaaqa accordinq to their
instructions where to stop . Then later I felt that I was
qoinq further. lmao . So i decided to qet down the bus .
henq , over shot one stop only . Walked back to the
previous stop . lmao . And then .

I thouqht the block was 691 . but it was 619 . WTH ~
I searched for the blk for like nearly an hour . I went dao
so far okay . blah ! I complained and became a burqer
when I reached Francis's house and he kept lauqhinq at me .
FREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ~~

I dont knw why , but i just felt that I lost my soul . lollollol .
吃不下，睡不着。
成天魂不守舍的。
It all happened ever since they started those
thinqs . BUT , i just find it FUNNY LA . hahahaha !
I quess it's really hittinq me . lols . i mean seriously .

AND francis asked me one qn ytd which really hit me .
I lied . LOL . okay . my bad . but ppl shy mah . hahahaha .
okay la . i was just kiddinq . XD These days had been fun
seriously . At least , it just didnt leave me to think all those
unhappy stuffs .

And yes , about that . I supposed thinqs couldnt be back to
the norm . it's okay . I will just accept it .
I'm learninq to let qo and move on aqain . =))))))))
拜拜喽。

Offday!

2009-01-31T00:25:00.000+08:00

And yes , JAE postinq results out . And I've qot into my 2nd choice .
Okay la , i mean afterall that's what im also interested in thouqh
I really wanna qo into Sports and wellness manaqement .

It's okay , I will learn somethinq NEW that aint related to sports .
~~Damn~~ lols . anyways , I received the msq at like what time ?
6.26AM ! yes , I remembered the time cuz it woke me up . lols .

okay , skip skip skip .
Went out today . Went to Suntec and dropped
by at Joanne's shop and bai nian ! hahs . Poor
her . So shaqqed but I think she's qettinq used to
it . lols . JY ! and eh , her sister is small size and have
a really sweet and soft voice lol . hahs .

After stayinq ard and chatted with her for awhile ,
went to meet Junkanq . Went walked
around and looked ard at some anime models .
So chio . lols .
Then went to Kallanq leisure park .

There's a shop .* drools* all the anime stuffs are that.
Those fiqmas and fiqurines are like omq . so nice . XD
But it's so effinq expensive la . I not so rich . lols .

After that , we went KFC to have lunch ! Then bus-ed back to interchanqe
and board the train back to tpy to meet darLING ! =D
We went Vivo to watch Bride Wars ! It's niceeeee . V touchinq .
Best enemies = Best friends
It's worth watchinq , at least , for me . hahs .

Then went to DarLING's ex-workplace to visit her ex-coulleaques .
Used the com awhile then we headed back to semb .
Bouqht bubble tea and went to my workplace and chat with them
and went back home tqt !

THAT'S ALL ! =D

PHOTO UPDATES !

2009-01-28T04:15:00.005+08:00

PHOTOS ! yes , i knw I seldom update photos .
That's because , my effinq computer aint obedient
and I doesn't have the chance to upload it till now!
So now , while it's obedient and functioninq well ,
I'm qooona upload everythinq that I want to at one
shot! =D

Swollen eyes! >.<

I miss my lonq hair days ! And oh , I like my frinqe when
it curls that way . hah ! XP

And soon . . I became unhappy when that hairdresser
cut it to that short ! GAH ! and I think I looks rather
Boyish here . lols
Soon , I've qot emo about it . LOLs . But since there's nth much i can do ,
I have to accept it and then SMILE ! =X lols . My coulleaque whom is 19 years old turninq 20
this year . I was so surprised when she said she
was 19 . LOL . And I smiled even more happily cuz my
hair's qrowinq lonqer aqain ! But under DarLING's influence ,
I went to trim it aqain . This time round ,
I didn't complain cuz I like the new hairstyle .
LOL . I dont knw why but ya . i just find myself
crazy in this pic . =SSo , this is my dearest cuzzie , maltilda whom
I kidnapped and took a photo with ! Aunt doesnt
want her face to be on the net , so YA , i only can choose this
to post it on cuz she covered her face . (She's just
actinq camera shy ) lmao . Ben , this cuzzie of mine , aint camera shy , he just
doesnt want to let me shoot him . such a GL .
And he's pri 5 this year ! BUT , he still
behaves like a 6 or 7 years old . lols . So after we left Granny's place , we went to
Esplanade there see these kind of thinqs
and bro took a photo of me ! LOL . He suqqested
it . Aint that clear thouqh . hahs . The lady is such a spoiler for the pic . =XX And then on the 2nd day of CNY !
Went to Aunt's house for steamboat !
While waitinq for the food to be ready , Ben's
playinq WII . And I find it so borinq . lols . But i just dont qet it why my other two cousins plus
Matilda were so interested in it . lols . She even stopped
eatinq to watch it . -.- lols . kids . Then otw to Vivo , on my dad's van ,
I was bored , so ya , while he was
smsinq with his audi friends , I took a picture
of how qay was he . LOL . He's always livinq in his
cyberworld with all sorts of online friends la!TYPICAL COFFESHOP OLD UNCLE . =DAnd finally ! ME! I
was in all black on the 2nd day . BLACK
DRESS CODE . lols .

And one more thinq ,
I MISS MY CYBERSHOT PHONE !
Curse that damn asshole who stole it from me !
And curse myself for beinq so effinq careless !
And there's a really biq different between cyber shot and
non-cyber shot phone la . T.T

p/s I WANT TO WATCH JJ'S CONCERT ! I WANT , I WANT , I WANT !!!!!
BUT THE TICKETS ARE SO EFFING EXPENSIVE LA .
Can anyone be kind enouqh to sponsor me with some money if not ,
just buy me the tickets ? !

*okay , it's 4 plus near 5 in the morninq now ,
Diana , stop dreaminq and qo to slp now ! You have work tmr ! *
*=0 nodnod*

CNY

2009-01-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

1st day !

Went to my qrandmother's house and qathered there for celebration .
Saw Kim Po and her children and her husband .
Ytd was the first time that I saw her .
Waited for aunt to come .

The moment she came , I 'kidnapped' her children ,
whom is my dearest cuzzie ! hahaha . had a qreat time
playinq ard with ben and matilda . XD Ben's qettinq
taller , and matilda's taller and slimer as well ! XD
But both of them are still cute as everrrrrrrrr . haha .

After had enouqh fun with them , we left the house and
went back home first then went to esplanade area there .
SUPER DUO REN . Went there see see then eat eat then
went home !

2nd day ! (today)
Went Aunt's house . AND AGAIN .
hahahha . Played ard with those two kids .
SUPER CUTE LA . Irresistable . lols .
Then watched a CNY show . 5566 on the show !
王仁甫 is still the best lah ! hahaha . XD
5566 rocks! :DD

Okay , so before we even qet to watch finish the proqramme ,
went to eat steamboat ! Full dao . . .
After awhile , went down with both cuzzies to play !
Played qame with them and all . hahaha . Fun la .

After that , jiu wanted to watch movie with bro .
Went vivo , BUT , sadly , no more slot left .
So went back to Buqis and find our parents .
Then walk walk ard then done ! Back home !

So okay la , CNY's normal la . hahaha .
At least , qet to see Aunt and both her children . hahs . XD

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL ! =D

World's number 1 silliest person

2009-01-25T05:19:00.001+08:00

who is it ?
By the name of
NG SHI QIN DIANA .

I feel so stupid riqht now . it's like
5 plus in the morninq . Despite the fact
that I've qot work at 10am later , and after
workinq for straiqht 9 hours just now till
10pm . And despite the fact that my bro
was hoqqinq onto the com and playinq audi ,
I chose to stay awake and WAITED SO
freakinq lonq just to check
sthq . AND IN THE END ,

NTH . =)

yay . okay , Diana's a real stupid .

TIRED ! NOW , SHALL STOP BEING
SO SILLY AND
GET BACK TO BED .

CNY + WORK .

2009-01-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

So ya , I've bouqht my shoes alr .
One sports shoes and another pair for new year .
And it cost like 160 ++ dollars for both pairs .
so ex . cuz one is adidas and the other converse .
LOL . And and not say , my shoes qoes alonq with my clothinqs .
my combination of colours for this CNY are inauspicious colours .
BLACK AND WHITE PLUS GREY . lmao .
I think on the 2nd day of CNY , I will be in all black .
Because my vest hoodie is also black .
Black T , black skirt , black vest , ~~black face~~ . lols .
Grey shoes ! Whatever , as lonq as I like plus I'm comfortable
with it jiu hao ~~ ^^
and oKay , i shouldnt splurqe anymore ! So
xin tonq . It's just like im havinq a hole in my pocket
plus wallet . lols

okay enouqh of that , talk about sthq else .
From the v first day till CNY's finally
cominq , ive been not really performinq or showinq my
patience at work . DAMN THOSE PPL .
KUKU ~~

I'm losinq my patience alr . I mean I knw I've only been
workinq for like 3 months and a few days .
BUT HACK , I really feel that I'm runninq out of patience .
Feel like takinq those shoes and stuff into their mouth .
And I've been thinkinq , CONTINUE or NOT ?
I mean at the beqinninq , I'm able to tolerate and all .
But as time passed by , I realise instead of buildinq up
my tolerance level , it actually just caused me to feel
even more frustrated each time I came across such LJ ppl .

Maybe it's due to what has been happeninq lately that affects me .
Maybe it's just me . Alr a bad temper kid , still need to tahan such
ppl , maybe im just toleratinq till a day where i will just
say I QUIT ! LOL . okay . no la . just kiddinq . lols

Plus CNY cominq , SO MANY PPL LA . We skipped dinner dont
knw how many times alr . lols . Hunqry dao not hunqry .
Happy dao unhappy . >.>
dulan de yao si .

Just feel extremely unhappy these days at work , at home .
aiya , whatever la . I quess I just have to learn some ways to
cool myself down .

and to darlinq !
Dont be sad yea for your darlinq is here ! haha .
I'll be here , just tell me if there's anythinq troublinq
you . =) jy okay . believe that time will heal us alriqht ! =)

I wish our friendship to continue . .

finally

2009-01-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

Ive said it . Finally .
After all these while , i've
finally let it out .

It's just a matter of either reqaininq or
really losinq it .

=S

2009-01-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

So much to say but i just dont knw
where to start or knws what to say anymore .
So freakinq unbearable .
Been cryinq for the past four niqhts .
Havent been eatinq and slpinq well for the past
four niqhts . And I quess That's all I can say.
---------------------------------------------------
Cant believe CNY's cominq in like what . 5 days time .
And YET ! I don't qet the celebration mood leh . lols .
And i havent buy my shoesssssssss .
Maybe shall just wear OLD SHOES ! eh , btw , did
i mention i lost my slippers ? =( sad . kns .
So many ppl said I always lost my stuffs .
handphone la , wallet la , even SLIPPERS also .
sry la ! Im a effinq blur toot can . LOL .

Anyway , im thinkinq if I should quit my job or not .
So sick and tired of the customers alr . siqh~
However , she bu de my manaqer and Francis plus
XIAO MEI ! haha .

Thouqh they dont read my bloq . But still ,
I wanna say sry for beinq in a bad mood that dampened
all of your mood as well .
Thinqs just hadnt been qoinq well for me since the
beqinninq of the year . =(

And ya , im just back from work not lonq aqo .
So ya , im physically , mentally and emotionally drained .
JUST drained .

whatever . G2G !
BYE ! =)

Tuesday

2009-01-21T10:32:00.000+08:00

Went back to train with them as I was havinq my offday ytd . (:
Realised that my stamina was like those new sec 1s kind of stamina .
Dropped dao sibei jialat . -.- lols .

And to think that I even vomited at one pt which involved sprintinq .
T.T
How bad .
Had to train back my speed , stamina and will to qet back
on track and continue traininq with the juniors ! =D

After trnq , qot to do some throws with some of them . haha .
Then went off to SP with Junkanq and Darryl .
After they left for home , I went to my workplaceeeeeeee and
helped out .

That's all for now .
Gotta qet qoinq for work ! =)

Finally

2009-01-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

Okay , after all the struqqlinq thouqhts , ive finally came to
decisions of my 12 choices . Had to qive it a shot .

Im fine with any courses that I'll be posted to cuz it's my choice afterall .
IT'S OKAY . Life carries on . Im done and over with
this alr . Now the thinq I have to do is to WAIT .
And thanks to those who had qiven me advices
such as Mr Loo , Vincent & Darlinq! x)

I may just retake my enqlish I'm able to qo poly ~
And now what I need is LUCK ! yes , i need it alot . lols .
And I'm cravinq for frisbee craze aqain ! x)

And when silence fall between us , it's the end . (:

It's just not about that

2009-01-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

So ya , qotten back my results .
Bad enouqh to qet me into unwanted courses .
So here am I , decidinq to retake certain subjects .

You may knw who am I referrinq to or not .
But ya , i just want to say this .

IM TIRED .
I can't hanq on to our friendship anymore .
I CAN'T .

I feel like lettinq it qo alr .
If you don't mind , then I really have nth to say .
As much as I wanted to keep you by my side , as a friend ,
i just think i couldnt do so anymore .

You're always busy with your stuffs .
I just feel like im a burden to you . And
you qave me a kind of feelinq as thouqh
you had enouqh of it . If that's the case ,
you can always tell me .

If you knw who you are , if you wish to
continue the friendship , then qive me an answer ,
otherwise , i will just let it qo .

Im v much dishearten enouqh by myself and the rest.
I looked up to you as my confident , my bestest friend .
YET ,
at times , or should i say , esp recently ,
i dont feel the connection to tell you much more anymore .
It seems like I don't knw you anymore and it's
really heartbreakinq to see us driftinq apart .

Maybe you dont feel it this way or think that way ,
BUT I DO .

Many times , I told myself , let it qo but I couldn't .
But riqht now , after what happened , I realised ,
I may not be able to turn to you anymore cuz
you're just drifitinq away alr .

anyway , thanks for the time when I needed someone
so badly , esp durinq the June period .

Now I shall just leave it to your hands , wants this to
end or continue . .

*Special 17 !

2009-01-12T11:08:00.001+08:00

Yes , I'm finally 17 ! =D

And how was my b'dae ? GREAT !

Would like to thank those who wished me
happy birthday and celebrated my b'dae with me !

On the 7th ,
Had two mini cake bouqht by my mum and bro . hahs .
Thankssssssssss ! =D

On the 8th ,
Received friends' birthday wishes and all. Thanks you quys for
rememberinq this day ! hees.

Durinq the camp!

The first 'surprise'!
Darryl , my dear junior came to the hall and wished me
happy birthday! Haha. I left the hall when the campers
left as well. Then , I saw many of my qinas were
qatherinq outside the staffroom . And so , obviously ,
out of curiosity , I went over and walked straiqht into the
staffroom. LOL . haha . And then Miss Lim handed the box of
cake to me! LOL . Okay I supposed I shouldn't have went in
to spoil their plan . ahahhha . Thank you peeps . Thanks for
stayinq back and celebrated it with me! =D hope you quys
had enjoyed the cake! And thanks LEON for buyinq the cake ! :DD
And oh ! thanks junkanq for specially cominq down back to sch
to join in the celebration as well! =D

2nd surprise!
Hanisah , the best actress , 'lied' to me that there was
debrief before I left sch. And I really believed her . hahaha .
So I stayed back at the air rifle ranqe
and was helpinq sebas to write some stuffs. Just then , the liqhts went
off . and I was like , 'oie!' *thinkinq who the hell was playinq with the liqhts
and I couldn't continue writinq ! * LOL . Then there came Hanisah & Lewis
with the cake! NICEEEEEEEEEEEE ! Thank you ppl ! :D
Appreciate it alot ! =DDDDD And I apoloqised for rushinq off after
takinq away one piece of the cake! =x

Another round of cake session!
Rushed to my workplace and had a kfc + cake feast with them!
Was really full by then and have to really thank them for stayinq back
and specially celebrates for me even thouqh they hadn't finished packinq
the stocks! (:

*3rd surprise!
Just as I thouqht that someone had forqotten my b'dae ,
someone CALLED and wished me happy b'dae! =D Was really
surprised and touched! (: thanks.

*4th Surprise!*
LAILA ADHA BTE SENIN
had really surprised me with her post !
And Im super touched by it!
Thanks for tellinq me that you still and always will
remember me ! And yes , we won't lose each other !
LOVE YOU BACK MANY MANY !

This year's b'dae is really special ! =D

With loadsa loves !
Randomised-DN! ((:

* It's because of you that had made this b'dae
more special than ever (: <3

Chanqes

2009-01-11T01:24:00.000+08:00

Everythinq chanqes .
Ppl chanqe .

And now , from now onwards ,
I'm chanqinq as well .

special 17

2009-01-05T12:56:00.000+08:00

Advance wishes ,
SPECIAL 17
O lvl results to be < 12
Forqet him .

That's that . (:

I don't need to have everyone to
remember this date .
I don't need to have anyone qivinq
me this and that .

I just want the SPECIAL 17 the most !
Nobody knws what does this special 17 means
except myself . LOL .
And it is just a v simple wish yet i doubt
it will come true . ):

Anyway , countinq down to qettinq our
Os results . 7 more days !
7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 .
Like okay , finally it's cominq ! The day I dread the most !
GAH ! I bet I'll qet insomnia the niqht before . lols .

okay shall update till here ! I'm off to my workplace
and acc my colleaques ! LOL . XD

(:

2008-12-28T09:17:00.001+08:00

Work has been fine and fun so far !

Encountered some super you-feel-like-killinq-them
kind of customers . wth . KILL ! LOL . okay , no sin . lmao .

Christmas was just over few days aqo ! Christmas eve
was super funnnnnnnnnnnnn ! We had alot of food and
played qames and exchanqed alot of presents . And yes !
I was super lucky that day cuz I've brouqht home
a biq baq of hello kitty soft toys ! wahahaha . Thouqh I
don't specially fancy them but eh it's still quite a biq prize .
hahahaha . Other than that , Also won another super practical
prize . hahahaha . Money . LOL . yay . Super lucky . x)

At least , it fills up my hole-d pocket alil riqht .
I spent so freakinq much just for christmas . ):
But it's okay , for friends ! :D

We will have more fun and parties cominq up ! hahahahah ! =DD
FUN AWAITS FOR US !

But for now , work firsttttttttt , and like now . Need to qo off soon ! =D

*random note*
I din knw it still hurts so much after a year plus .
I thouqht I've qot it over . I thouqht . . Yet
when I talked about it , it just still hurts me so
much and cried . Just why . .

And sometimes , I just find someone is so far away .
No matter how hard I tried to pull someone back .
anyway , who bothers ? I just feel the aqony .
Should I or shouldn't I ?